It was about three months later before we had the chance to be together again, in fact we had only a few chances to be intimate during the whole time due to illness, travel, holidays, guests, more travel, family, kids, and work, etc. It was an unusual interruption for us and not very pleasant. The few times we had sex it was soft and passionate and good. I wondered though how and when and in what form it would go next when it eventually turned kinky again. I thought about how it would soon be almost two years now that we had been having these fantasies together.

During one of the days I was gone, I gave Linda her standing order to go view special porn video clips on our computer that I had put aside for her. She unfortunately wasn't able to get the opportunity, but she told me something interesting in that she had instead intended to go and view the fake sex pictures I had made of her! I found that thought quiet titillating and looked forward to the time when she would tell me she had.

One night while she was online at the computer, I snuck into the other room and using another computer and our new home network I sent her an instant message saying, "Hey sexy, you like black dick?" I could hear her laugh and then she called out to me "Is that you?" I said nothing but she typed back, ".depends.is it big?" At this I laughed, and as I was typing a reply she stuck her smiling head in the door and said, "I thought that was you, but I wanted to be sure." I chuckled and Linda said, "That's pretty neat we can both be online at the same time.I can think of some fun possibilities with that." I was not entirely sure what she meant but I knew I had for sometime been urging her to go online with me into some chat rooms to cyber sex with black guys and now with both of us online it would be even more erotic to be there to "watch" as she was "on her own." But my mind was really on the coming holidays and our out of town getaway ..that would include a trip to a reportedly particularly nasty swing club with a high percentage of black males. I had only mentioned it once or twice, but I knew she always remembered those things and the lead was left to me on such matters. Though I was not expecting anything to happen, just that we would take in the experience, one never knows, I thought.

One day I had the devious and titillating idea of listing down all the incredibly nasty fantasies that I could possibly think of that Linda and I might one day reasonably achieve...I listed things such as a threesome with another woman and then with a black guy, going to a swing club and adult theater and having sex there in public or with another couple, sucking off strangers at a glory hole, even being in an all black gang bang, and on and on, etc. I must have included some 12 things on "the List" as we came to call it. Then I sent it to her with instructions to list next to each item a score of 1 to 4, with 1 being never do it and 4 being definitely do it, while 2-3 would be "may be interested", and "could be persuaded." As I write this she still teases me by not showing me her answers yet (she say she's saving them for the right opportunity) but assures me there was only a single "1" rating on the whole list and several "4's." So, naturally I am allowing her indulgence, and I suspect the longer I wait the more her answers will in time be to my liking. I am sure when we sit down for a few drinks some evening and "review" the List and her answers together it will be very sexy and end in some hot nasty fucking. I look forward to it. I have no doubts the List was a good way of conveying to my wife my interest and intentions while permitting her the right of refusal and negotiation.

About five weeks went by since our last occasion of "nasty sex" have we have come to call it whenever we engage in any hot talk and BDSM type activities. We have either not had any opportunity for sex to do schedule conflicts or had had it "soft and nice" as we call our vanilla lovemaking. Then, for a gift on a special occasion I bought her a special vibrator toy unlike any of her others. I had noted previously that my wife did not seem to respond with much enthusiasm, so, to encourage her more to masturbate and get herself off (remember, my wife was not sexually experienced before me and I want to get her more and more sexual) I got her this really unobtrusive "feminine" vibrator that was not shaped like a dildo, and had all sorts of speeds and modes. We finally got a chance to lay with it and it was even better than I hopes. We put in a movie with two black guys doing a middle aged red head in an apartment, and soon Linda was eagerly rubbing her new electric toy on her clit while I sucked her titties. I had said nothing for the most part when I put the movie or while we watched, then at one point, she spoke up and said, "That could be my pussy" in reference to the guy frantically fucking the girl on TV. I fucked Linda sideways while she used the vibrator on her clit until I got off and we both fell asleep. She did not come but told me that it was "really reallllyyyy good" nonetheless.

The next time we fucked was the day after. I told her to get her new toy out and she said she was hoping I'd suggest that (which made me nod approvingly inside). She used it as I slowly fucked her from behind. I was really surprised at how long she used it, as it must have been on her clit ten minutes while she moaned softly the whole time. I made a mental note that she never enjoyed this much pussy play when it was just my tongue or fingers. That was a good sign.to know she wanted more pleasure. After another ten minutes, where she changed the speed and settings on her toy to get herself really going, I started to fuck her harder. Finally, out-loud Linda told me to call her a "mother-fucking bitch whore" and a "filthy slut." I did so eagerly and felt my cock grow hard at fulfilling her filthy need, the sexy feeling of domination swelled inside me just knowing that such verbal humiliation really got her off was both very intimate and erotic to me. It made me beam as she then told me how she would "fuck anything" because she was a "whore who loves big cock," so at that point I fucked her at full speed, ramming her pink hole while feeling the vibrator tickle my balls and softly stimulate my cock as I plowed in and out of her. I moaned myself and loudly called her a "Black cock-loving skank bitch" and she moaned "yesssss" as I quickly came, followed some half a minute later by her own shattering orgasm from the vibrator---whereby she screamed louder and longer than I ever remember hearing! It was quite surprising, actually. My own cock was still pumping her softly doggie style as she came herself and even after she still kept the vibrator on her clit for several more seconds. All I could think was "cool", Linda came really hard while being fucked and while talking nasty! Excellent! Later, my lovely wife told me that how really good it felt to cum while I was inside her like that, and that she liked it a lot and wanted it the same way again. Of course, I lost no opportunity to remind her that she had been very nasty and said many nasty things while she came. She giggled sheepishly and said only, "I know."

The Club Trip

Near the end of the year, we were able, by a rare alignment of circumstances, to find ourselves out of town in and finally an actual real on-premise swing club. To make long story short, we were there, after midnight, and unfortunately exhausted and fatigued and at the wrong time of the month. Nevertheless, we treated the occasion as a "fact finding' exploratory opportunity to check things out and watch. We hung out for a few hours, and toward 2 am a few people finally started to get things going. There is not much to say except we peeked into a few rooms to see darkened couples and threesomes groping and moaning, and we sat in a dark heater and necked and groped some ourselves, and we had a few laughs. But we didn't talk to anyone really or watch too closely, it was our first visit and Linda was a bit unsure and trying to relax. At one point though, as we sat quietly on a sofa nearby, not 6 feet in front of us, a tall middle aged black man walked up to a buxom middle aged blonde. We talked later and agreed that the night was "titillating" and that we would "go back." For a brief moment, Linda flabbergasted and disappointed me by expressing confusion as to what kind of club it was we were visiting and what was expected of her, I suppressed my considerable annoyance at her confusion, and chalked it up to as I know our communication is very good and I clearly expressed what we were going to do (i.e., check things out) and where we were going that night. I would have expected my report on an event of this importance to be longer, but there Is not much more to add.

What was interesting, though, was how the trip did influence our fantasy life. One night Linda was on the bed using her favorite new vibrator toy and I was rubbing her all over and licking her chest, telling her how sexy she looked to me, how I loved watching her pleasure herself. I then whispered if she remembered the small bondage room at the club (which had a padded bench and St. Andrew's cross both with velcro cuffs). As Linda nodded, I suggested that she wished she could have been bent over that bench facing the wall, her arms and legs secured, her dress hiked up, just waiting there, exposed, vulnerable.knowing all those men were around..I made her confess that she wanted that, wanted to be taken like that, that she would have let any man come in there are have a go at her holes. Boy did this get her wet. She started to moan as the vibe worked her clit at a faster speed. I told her I would have let them, that I would have "lined them up" and they'd all be black. She moaned and her head nodded silently in agreement. I could see, could tell she was thinking about it. I then asked if she had watched that blonde woman suck that man's dick and she said she had, even though she appeared as if she hadn't really been looking. She admitted she watched more, that she got a good look and that yes, it did make her wet. I pointed out that now the only other hard cock she had ever seen in real life was black. I then "accused" her of being jealous of that slut and Linda moaned yes, adding that she was jealous of her. Just as she started to peak toward orgasm, moaning longer now, I whispered that she really wanted that man's big black cock, "Didn't you?" I said. She softly answered, "Yes, yes, I did." So, I made her confess more saying, "Tell me, me tell me what you wanted?" and she blurted out, "Big black cock." And I ordered her again more forcefully, "Say it, say it again" while rubbing and squeezing her tits and pulling hard on her left nipple. "Big black cock.big black cock" she said, while getting off on her toy. "Say it!" I yelled as I pulled her nipple even harder, and she again repeated, "Big black cock!" once more followed immediately by the delightful tight wailing squeal of her orgasm. It was a really good one too. Long and loud and intense. I smiled satisfyingly. It felt controlling and liberating and erotic and dominant all at once and I knew she was wet and horny and now longing to be fucked. Linda then hurriedly said to me, "Fuck me with your big dick, I want your big dick." I did and it was goooood.

New Year's '04

Our New Year's evening found us at home, once again, but enjoying a very nice private evening of fine treats and drinks. We took the opportunity to play with the digital camera some, with Linda in sexy outfits, and we even tried out the video feature getting her all wet and cumming on from her toy. We plan to put the camera to good use with Linda using her dildo as well as capturing some of our nasty fuck talk at last. Once we were online we stated out exploring some chat rooms, but didn't find any that sparked our interest right away or that were very inviting. We sat naked, each of us on different computers a room apart, and the thought of following her around as she chatted with some aggressive horny black guys was really intriguing. We were playing in a room and a few guys tried to chat to her but she was not really in the mood for it, had actually never done anything like that yet, and finally said she wasn't really ready yet to hot chat other men like this (although doing so with a woman would have been fine). I was fine with that, though a tad surprised wondering what her reservation was all about. So, maybe next time. We then tried out exploring with our webcam for the first time and eventually allowed a submissive woman to watch us both as we chatted with her, then necked and played some with Linda's tits and my cock so she could see. Awhile later we grew bored left to go start fucking hot and heavy, but nice slow like. Very quickly into it Linda asked me in a whisper, "So where's your wife tonight?" Which was instantly arousing as I understood she was starting a role play game where she was pretending to be another woman, perhaps my sultry mistress or just some nasty promiscuous whore. She wanted me to fuck her dirty and use her, but actually, I was not really in a mood to enjoy "another woman" myself, and had been focused all night on the notion of her being with others. So, I used the opportunity to redirect the angle replying, "I don't know, probably out fucking her boyfriend like the dirty little slut she is." The statement was exciting and got me hot and Linda responded by saying it was probably true "because my wife certainly was a whore" and then she added how she was likely "out being fucked by her black boyfriend!" At that I started to really fuck Linda fiercely really getting into it and just deep plunging for minutes, over and over plowing into her silky wetness with her matching moans and groans encouraging me on. She could feel how incredibly hard I was and was wrapped around me moaning and smiling. I started to really enjoy it and for a minute or two started calling out, "Yes, yes! That filthy whore! The dirty bitch!" and she replied "Dirty filthy cocksucking bitch!" and with a minute or two I came hard deep inside her. There were a few other nasty exchanges but we had drank so much it is a little blurry.

We crashed in bed and in the morning I rolled over and felt her naked ass and remembering the night before, I felt a sudden surging hard on as the thought came to me of just taking her right there. I reached over and gave a few squeezes of her cute ass cheeks then threw off the covers and without a word pushed her roughly on her belly, I grabbed some lube from the bed stand and slapped it on my hard on, then sitting on her thighs (as she positioned herself discretely underneath me) I spread her and pushed my full length in. She let out a soft cry at this and I could feel some of her quickly vanishing dryness, but with seconds I was fucking rapidly slapping against her ass with grunts. I reamed her from this position, holding her arms down strongly at her side and just thinking again about last night while I relished the sensation of taking her! Linda tells me really likes it when I take her like this on occasion and though she doesn't climax and afterward is so sore or so numb that she can't, she doesn't mind she says because the sensation of the fuck is so good. So once more our year ended and began with a nasty bang.

Finally Anal!

At last I fucked my wife in the ass! And it was goooood. We had a rare leisurely Sunday afternoon opportunity to be alone and have sex. Linda got out her new toy and was on her belly using it to pleasure herself. As I was feeling particularly dominant, I spanked her some. For some time I had been wanting to make her cum while she was being spanked like I've read about, as I figure this association of pleasure with pain would be a good breakthrough and further encourage her tastes in BDSM style sexual activities. I had yet to do it and so I gave her a pretty good smacking this time, more so than ever before hoping that she might possibly make herself cum from the vibrator. Usually, I find spanking by hand to be awkward and not as pleasant as using a belt or flogger (I like using tools for spanking, I find them easier to control and "less personalizing" and therefore somehow more humiliating for her). But whenever I spank it quickly gets me really horny and I just want to stick it right in. But the two of us being slim and moderate in size makes it so that I can't really smack her ass all that well when I am busy humping her hard from behind like I do. So, our spanking is generally limited to a few foreplay slaps and occasional encouraging whacks in the middle of pumping. Besides, she does not have a high pain threshold.

So, as I got hard and her was as red as it's probably ever been, she let out a few loud real cries of pain. I then quickly started to fuck her. But before I did, as she was vibing her clit I was busy rubbing lube all over her ass and her pussy hole and then rubbing my slippery cock all around and over it back and forth, which I know Linda likes. I made sure to rub my cock head up and down her anus a lot and also gave it a few test pushes and some finger probes too. I finally I decided to just give a little test push in her ass as I straddled her, but as the pressure built and my tip started to spread her she said simply "No", and so I went back to sticking it in her warm pussy and pumped her awhile. I then decided that it was time once again to get out the but plug. Once before, about a year earlier I had used a soft, jell, anal plug on her and she had enjoyed she said. On a few other occasions I had finger her ass while fucking or working her clit to orgasm, but only once had Linda cum that way. I certainly liked fucking her as the plug was in that time. I couldn't feel it but I knew I was pushing up against it and that it was filling her ass, getting her use to the sensation. But every time since then that I attempted to bring it out again she passed on the opportunity. Not this time. I quickly went and retrieved it and as she lay passively working herself against her toy, as I sat on her thighs I gave her a few playful teases with the plug then just pushed it right into her ass.

Then, holding it in place I proceeded to fuck her hard, being sure to slam my hips against the end of the plug so she got some more pressure from it. Ahhh...it was fun. I looked down a moment later and saw it had actually slipped out, so back in it went. After a few minutes she was whimpering and moaning and started to say no, to take it out. I thought for a moment that perhaps her soft protests of "No.no." was just mood play, like the way sometimes when we fuck out of the blue Linda will start saying something like, "Oh...it's too big, take it out, it won't fit, oh, no.no..that dick's too big, it won't fit in my little pussy.ohhhhhh." it gives me a grin when she does, and so I always play along and start to say, "Take it! Take it all, Take that huge dick up your tight hole, Bitch!" But this time I was not sure what it was she was really asking, so I stopped and inquired and she said yes, she really wanted it out. I reluctantly removed it and doing so spoiled my mood. I continued straddling her ass and thighs and started to pump her slowly again but it just wasn't the same.

She was still working the vibe on herself and I started to think about how long I had been waiting to have that sweet ass of hers, how it had not been a priority for me for some time, but it had been five years now that we'd been together and, except for one half-hearted half-penetration once the year before, it has always been one excuse after another with her. She was never "in the mood' to try it and always postponed it to "another time." Well, God damn it, I thought, this is now that time! I was so frustrated my patience was through. I was tired of the "teasing" and all the promising and the interrupted sex times and our spoiled sex adventures because of life's situations in general. Right there I decided that if I had already done it half way before, it wouldn't be hard to do it all the way right now, this very instant. I was pumped up and annoyed and I figured that the best time was when she was wet, her ass was lubed and loose (not to mention cleanly empty) and the thought of just taking Linda, of being so dominant and demanding, suddenly made me very, very excited. Thus, I instantly felt very aggressive and pulled my stiff cock out of her pussy. All I remember is my mumbling something about having waited too long and being sick and tired of excuses and that she was going to just take it and like it! I quickly lubed my cock head and pushed it right against her ass, and then with insistence and Linda still not doing anymore than lie there compliantly with her vibrator in her cunt, I smoothly and carefully pushed it right up her ass, first three-quarters the length and then after a few pumps all the way in! All I heard from her was one short quick squeak of discomfort at the first initial push of my hard length past her hole. Whether or not she made any other sounds or words I never noticed as I was lost in the ecstasy of finally fucking that virgin ass!

It felt sooooo good, even tighter and hotter than her pussy. I remember right away saying, "Oh, yeah, I'm up your ass..take it!" I quickly began pumping and within half a minute I was slamming her hole hard and as deeply as I good, to the hilt. She was just whimpering and crying a little like she does from a good spanking or a particularly hard and dominate fucking. I filled her all the way up and rammed myself in and out of her tight ass, saying, "Take it bitch, You're getting ass fucked now, you little bitch! Oh, yes! My cock's all the way in you! Feel it, feel it all!" And then all I could do was fuck and moan until I spewed my load in her after only a minute or so. It was very nice and deeply satisfying to me. I slowly climbed off and saw the vibrator was off to the side in her hand and she was just lying there whimpering as I got up from the bed. I felt a tad bit of guilt at having finally achieved it with my wife in this manner, it was not the way I had envisioned introducing her to it. And I said this to her from the bathroom. But at the same time, I could not shake the sense of conquest and pleasure I had felt at having just had her in such a fashion! I consciously decided to allow myself to indulge that feeling over any remorse or regret. It was a bit intoxicating and her protests had certainly been real but were feeble compared to my insistence. To my surprise, she was very casual right afterwards and all she did next was ask me calmly, "How far did you get it in?" to which I replied, "Hunh? Why, all the way, baby! All the way. To the hilt!" I then cuddled her and told her how good it was and how much I liked it, and loved her, that I would have made it last longer but I was too excited. She had not orgasmed I noted and she said it was ok, she was satisfied enough. I told her next time it would last longer and be even easier.

Later that afternoon, in the kitchen Linda said to me that she still "felt full" down there from it and that that was a little discomforting. But when I asked if she had any comments or complaints about doing it, to my delight she said simply, "Nope." Then she added that, "it wasn't hardly as bad as I imagined it would be." I immediately asked, "So that's a 'Do again', then?" meaning something she would want in the future, and she smiled sheepishly, saying "Sometime." For the next couple of days I reviewed the whole incident in my mind over and over, relishing in it, getting hard over it, but also fretting over whether I could have done it differently or should have waited even. Finally, I had to know more and I drafted an email to my wife and asked her directly (though in vague enough terms that anyone else would not have the slightest notion as to our conversation topic) what she felt about our "weekend event", what she thought specifically of "my approach and manner" of conducting it, and whether she would do it again. Her reply was short and simple: "kinda fun, depends." Because I know her it still gets me excited when I think about that reply. I knew she was being shy and submissive. I was thrilled and felt vindicated for my assertiveness and aggressiveness. I then asked if she wanted it like that again sometime and she replied simply, "yes." So, I had definitely learned a lesson. I had not only learned more about my wife's tastes but my own capabilities. I wish I had done the whole thing sooner and I can't wait to do it again in an even more dominant way. Further, I've begun to ponder just how this lesson might be applied to "other" sexual activities of interest.?

Back to basics

The next weekend we had a chance to be alone and in the kitchen at one point during the afternoon I came up and grabbed my wife by the arm and pulled her into the darkened bedroom. She knew what was up and I knew she liked "just being taken sometimes" as she as explained it. I pushed her toward the bed, bending her over, and proceeded to pull her shorts and panties down around her ankles. I pulled out her vibrator toy and threw it in front of her. Then I stripped off all my clothes and re-donned only the black leather bike jacket I had been wearing. She was standing bent over, legs spread, working the vibe on her clit and I reached down to feel she was already wet. I teased Linda's ass and cheeks with my cock, slapping it against them and then with my palm halled-off and slapped her bottom really hard several times, followed by numerous hard spanks until she was all nice and red. I added some lube to my shaft and unceremoniously pushed myself roughly in her wet cunt. Linda grunted and adjusted herself as I waited a second for her to reposition before stating to drill her. Then as I fucked her I started to make her talk to me like I love, to tell me what excited her."Tell me what makes you wet." I said, "Tell me." As she moaned and sputtered under my thrusts she soon began a litany of the usual admissions: ".being spanked.licked.seeing two girls do it" I affirmed her admissions with my grunts and moans of pleasure and agreed that two women kissing and rubbing and humping one another got me hot too. "And what else?" I asked, as I continued rhythmically pumping her, "What else turns you on, hmmm?" She paused and replied, "What excites you, whatever makes you hard." adding "I like.being fucked, seeing black ass fucking white holes, seeing it going up and down."

At this, the preferred answer I was expecting, I began ramming her hard and fast. I had been straining to keep my cock under check and now I unleashed it, allowing it to grow harder and filler her up, plunging in it's full length and working her tight cunt good. I knew she meant it when she said what turns me on turns her on for I felt the same way in reverse and we had often discussed this pleasant symbiosis of ours. I made a mental note that this was perhaps the third time she had commented on "black ass" making her wet, or rather, how seeing a black guy's smooth muscular ass as it pumped a white woman got her hot. I filed it away as something to keep in mind. I started now to fuck her dirty, demanding she tell me more, probing her psyche deeper for even nastier fantasies and slutty thoughts. "What makes you wet, you dirty bitch?" I said, "Tell me, whore!" I demanded. Linda moaned and wailed under my thrusts, finally saying, ".Fucking a stranger, being used." .I fucked her harder. Then at last she added, ".Being a black slut, a big black cock whore." Linda heard my moans at this and felt the encouragement I could tell of my cock stiffening and fucking her even faster now. Her wails and cries of pleasure became more guttural and her voice changed as she really got into it now. She raised her tone and loudly cried, "I'm a dirty white-cunt cocksucker, dick sucker, ass fucker!" I yelled back that she was a "Black cock sucking skank!" and an "Ass fucking piece of filth, a stupid white trash bitch!", and she replied, "Yes, a bitch whore, make me your black dick loving bitch whore!" I started to scream, "Take that black cock, bitch, tell me you love it!", and she did, over and over as I the vibrator worked her clit, "I love black cock! I love big black cock!" she screamed as I fucked her, and I came super good and hard. I was spent, exhausted and fulfilled, and she was so rammed she couldn't finish climaxing herself and was throbbing and sore afterward, but also satiated, she told me. I climbed on the bed and pulled her up after me. We laughed and sighed and I told her that was good and nasty and for once after of these kinds of session we both just looked at each other in the eyes and smiled agreeing.

A Realization.

All this chronicling has given me some insight into my wife and our relationship. One thing I've come to realize recently was that she was not really a true "submissive" at all, but what is called a "bottom." Submissives it seems need to serve and be disciplined, whereas bottoms just like to be used. A sub does things as she's told or is punished; a bottom has things does to her by a "top" and might still be punished anyway. While she could play submissive, and I am definitely Dominant, I enjoyed just taking her and using her, more so than doing all the work and head games of training a slave. Being a bottom, she doesn't have to actually submit but can instead be "forced" or made helpless, sometimes with humiliation. The out of control element of being exposed, vulnerable, helpless, and "made" to do the things she secretly yearns to is what it's all about for a bottom. There's an intense eroticism to the element of being made to submit by being transformed through a certain amount of seduction, coercion, and roughness. When it's at the hands of a masculine and virile male it in turn makes her more feminine and desirable. Just like a sub, the bottom during sexplay has power of the "safeword" to call at any time a full stop or a slowdown for recovery, without fear of resentment or annoyance on the part of the Dominant. Like a sub a bottom may also "switch" roles on occasion, such as Linda wanting to "top" another woman. There are all flavors of subs and there are ones who are also bottoms, but Linda I now fully believe definitely enjoys the "passive" bottom role I've noted and now I've discovered that is directly in keeping with my own enjoyment in seeing her be ravaged or pleasured by other men, particularly the great taboo of her being with (or wanting to be with) the sexually aggressive well-endowed black male. Given how strong willed we both individual are as people, it makes more sense to me now and I will be pondering this dynamic from here on. It certainly will make me consider being even more "forceful" with her in particular activities in the future. .hehehehe