Waiting for Our First Visit to an Interracial Play Party

- It's now 3 days and counting until the upcoming private play party. I'm detecting only a calm acceptance from Linda about the event. Knowing her as I do, I suspected she very likely was not even thinking about it at all this week. But when I casually asked, she said she had in fact thought about it a little. I would of course love to see from her some enthusiasm and excitement towards going, but it's just not in her personality. I'm sure deep down she is nervous, perhaps not the least because she knows this is quite likely finally "it" ---the time she takes the plunge. Though it's ostensibly still just a "go and check things out" visit, we both know it could happen if she's comfortable and finds that "right first guy." As in all other times before, I'm trying to not get too excited, so as to not be disappointed or upset if she gets cold feet or the men are not too her liking or the scene there is somehow uncomfortable for us. But still, I can't help but have a good feeling having waited this long and tried so hard to get to one of these parties with these particular hosts. Part of me still can't shake the doubt that it will ever happen, that Linda will ever actually have sex with some strangers. I guess having fantasized so long and so much about it, in a sense it's all still very much in the realm of my fantasies. At the least, I keep reminding myself that she is going to visit another interracial swinger's party, has admitted she is ready, willing, and wanting to participate, and that it's only a matter of there being the right chemistry. In thinking about the party, I again find myself being excited and thrilled at the prospect not so much of seeing my wife have sex with another man or men (though that is obviously the point of it), but rather, I feel a growing excitement, my heart racing and breath quickening, at just the simple thought of watching her on the other side of a room flirting and talking some with a black guy or group of them. To see her smiling and giggling, sharing whispers, and touches, maybe dirty dancing a little, with them subtly pawing at her, and having her being completely comfortable with it all, is an incredibly thrilling thought. I imagine her in such a situation catching my eye and giving me a look that says: "I'm enjoying myself and I'm turned on by this, and by you watching me, and knowing it turns you on to see me like this only encourages me more." Just to think of seeing that look on her alone makes my temperature rise. While I am again having no expectations about what might occur, and have repeated to her that she does not have to do anything she doesn't want to, I can't be blamed for my imagination naturally wandering once more to the delicious possibilities and potential scenarios that might unfold. [Curiously, I had Linda read this paragraph to herself, and afterwards she giggled and just smiled at me. I considered it a good sign.]

- A thought occurred to me: What do I expect when my wife finally does does have sex with black men? What possible change do I anticipate I'll see in her? When I think about it, I have to say, Linda is no prude and never has been. She isn't even shy about sex really. Even at her mature age she also doesn't lack any self-esteem or confidence about either her body or her sex appeal. She just has a certain schoolgirl nervousness because she started so very late in life and has had so little experience. Overcoming this has been the biggest obstacle. So, I imagine that I expect once she has finally had sex with another man or other men, and or another woman, she will experience a change. I expect that, just with any one else growing in their sexual experiences, to some degree she will be much more relaxed about sexual activity and even more willing to indulge herself, to pursue and fantasies and expand her interests. That can't help but also improve her self-image and her sense of her own sexuality. Time will tell. But it is something to look forward to finding out. I also can't help but wonder if having once been so indulged she will become hungrier for even more?

- It's now one day before the play party and I am finding it increasingly difficult to think of anything else. Working on this journal doesn't help, as it obviously gets me excited. I was thinking that what I would ideally like is for my wife to walk into the party and then go around to mingle while I watch and listen from a discrete distance. But, knowing that she is shy and nervous, I am quite sure I will instead be leading her in, leading her to sit or stand, introducing her to anyone and all the while constantly inquiring attentively as to her mood and comfort. Still…I can use this to my advantage because I know what she needs (and perhaps even desires) to get her started is to have me or someone else take charge. So, if necessary I expect to have to assist things along when the opportunity presents. For example, if I meet a guy who has potential I may go bring him over to introduce him to her and right in front of her just say, "This is my slut wife, she's a whore for black men and perhaps you can use the bitch tonight…" That would not only set the tone for him in how to treat her, but the demeaning nature of it might turn her on considerably. I could from there go further depending on how the man responded, such that I might hold Linda and expose her tits to him and ask his opinion (like I did once before) or I might tell her to stand and spread her legs or turn around and bend over, etc., before continuing to humiliatingly discuss her in front of the guy. I could tell him what a three-hole slut she needs to be, and how I am here tonight to share her out and get her trained. I have every confidence this dynamic would seriously excite my wife and that giving her a nudge like this is the most likely way things will unfold. What's unlikely is some guy politely introducing himself and her responding positively such that he eventually makes a pass and she slowly responds and he leads her to a bed for foreplay, etc. etc. More likely is I would tell him to feel her cunt and see how wet it is. She would gasp at this and let him simply by not interrupting. If necessary, I might hold her arms behind her back and tell him to try out her tits or even to have a taste of her. I'd tell him he was her first. Then I would tell him to go use her hard. I might also have to go scout around the room, and say to a prospective guy, "Hey, my wife is here tonight over there, maybe you might being interested in her…she's very shy and completely new to this, never having been with a single man other than me her whole life, absolute truth…" and then see how he responds. Provided Linda does not actively say "No" or make some overt indication that she is uncomfortable and not interested in a guy, this is very likely how, after 5 years of persuasion now, I expect things to unfold. We'll see how accurate my prediction is about needing to give things a "nudge."

We talked some tonight about going to the event and Linda again repeated that she was curious and nervous, and still considered this just a "go and see visit" with no expectations. I agreed and we left it at that. …Except, I kind of explained that I was aware that she might need a "nudge" to help her go where she wants to go and that I was prepared to give that nudge. But I added I was not going to explain now what I meant by nudging things, that she would just have to use her imagination. She said, "Okay."

Plenty of Progress at the Play Party

On the way to the play party that night things were going well enough. But halfway there, Linda got some anxiety and made a nervous comment that really set me off. She said that I needed to realize that she had no intention of actually going all the way with anyone tonight. I got angry as I was astonished that she would say such a thing at this point. I almost stopped the car, but instead I calmly got her to explain how she could possibly make such a declaration when the whole purpose of us going was specifically to see if she could finally find someone she liked enough to do it with. So, settling down, I managed to get her to restate her previous nervous declaration and simply express that she did not want to feel obligated to do anything tonight, and wanted to be reassured that I was not going to pressure her to do anything with anyone she didn't want to. I saw that she was just having cold feet over it all again and that she only needed to know that she could just relax and decline if no one interested her. It was the same old apprehension and although I had covered it over and over before that this was all true, she just needed to hear it again. So, I reassured her once more and in turn she said she felt much better and acknowledged that, yes, she wanted and was hoping to find someone to fuck, and that she would do whatever she wanted with whomever she found attractive enough. …Whew. Her continued nervousness surprised me though and even disappointed me since I had been so careful so often to make her feel comfortable and the evening had started out with her being in a relaxed mood. But, I guess until she eventually goes through with it she will always feel this way and I will always have to reassure her.

It turned out we arrived to the party a little early and the hosts and guests were all running late. So we ended up waiting about 30 minutes. We made the best of it but it added to Linda's anxiety a bit. Once we got into the hotel suite though and things were being set up, she was more relaxed. It was a nice place and the hosts really took effort to make us comfortable. It took about an hour for guys to arrive and another half hour for a third couple to arrive. As the men arrived they were all cordial and most everyone introduced themselves casually to either one or both of us. Most seemed nervous themselves and actually a little shy, perhaps even uncomfortable, I noticed. I saw this didn't change much throughout the night. They were most all pretty quiet and did not go out of their way much to try to talk with anyone or with her, seeing as how she was the new girl and clearly a little shy. Ironically, a little assertiveness and more sociability on behalf of some of the men would have been just what Linda needed to help her open up, I'm sure. But I imagine upfront they would have to feel pretty confident and comfortable with any woman before they ever allowed themselves to relax enough to be that way, assuming they had it in them.

There were about 12 guys total, though we were told to expect twice that many. Only about two or three were possible candidates for her from what I could tell, the rest being tool old, too chubby, or too light skinned to interest her, or, just not very pleasant. Still, I had a good feeling and really expected this would at last be the night. Most of the evening I stood against a wall or sat in a chair off to one side and just watched her. She was either sitting in a chair near the sofa or standing by the bar looking into one of the bedrooms. With her long boots Linda was wearing a crotchless black lace body stocking under a long black skirt and short black blouse. She had no panties on and the blouse could unzip to reveal her tits in a sexy black cup-less push up bra. I enjoyed taking in the site of my shy mature wife looking sexy but nervous in a room full of horny black strangers. It was titillating though for me to just watch her as she sat on a chair in the main center room, watching an interracial porn video with two black guys sitting there and a few others standing nearby. She later told me that at one point she considered just getting up and moving to the sofa to sit right between the two guys…knowing this would have been provocative and likely encourage them. I would have practically creamed my pants if she had. But as she explained she just couldn't bring herself to do it at the time. That was good to know though.

The guys were coming and going, walking around smiling at her and cooly eyeing her up I could tell. As one of the women was being fucked on a bed in the next room I finally got Linda to go take a look. She stood in the doorway watching for about ten minutes, or walked back and forth to peek while sipping a coke. I had to all but convince her that watching like that was acceptable and expected. Then eventually at my urging she made her way into the room completely to lean against a wall near the bed. She watched as two fairly beefy twenty-something guys took turn on a mature blonde. My wife got a good eyeful of their asses pounding the woman, and a good look at one or two other older guys stroking themselves as they waited for a turn. She was definitely entertained and later told me it was sexy to see.

I wished I had brought a bottle of wine or something, as everyone was drinking and we felt a little uncomfortable with asking for anything other than a coke. I'm sure some wine would have helped Linda relax. She was still way too nervous and I could not get her to take off her skirt or even unzip her blouse. After several tries I at last had to quietly chew her out for being so uptight and not letting herself relax. Then this time I specifically warned her against getting cold feet again. I added that if I thought she needed a push I was prepared to do it. I was somewhat aggravated by this point. She nodded at me and my lecture seemed to have made her allow herself to relax, as she finally opened her blouse to show off her tits. I moved her into the back room further and after much coaxing got her to go stand father inside the room against a farther wall to get a better view of the earlier woman taking on her third or fourth guy already. It was nearly 10:30 by this time and we knew we had to leave by midnight, so time was running short and I kept looking at the door hoping some more guys would show up that might be more appealing for her, or that another couple would show so that she could see another woman getting some fun.

There was one young guy, not as dark as I am sure Linda would have liked, but who had a nice body and was incredibly hung. She had watched him fucking earlier. Linda made some small talk with him briefly and I told him in a whisper that she was shy, looking for her first time, and that she needed just a little coaxing. He seemed interested but very shy himself. As he and I were in the corner of the bedroom I was trying to discretely give him advice on how to play her when she came up and interrupted us. I assumed it was because she was suspicious of my mischief and figured I was up to something. To my surprise though, she sat right on the bed right next to him. As the two of them kept watching the blonde woman nearby---now with men working her---I tried nonverbally to get my wife to make a move on the guy, but she kept giving me looks that said she was too nervous. She had also of course re-buttoned her darn vest already. I was hoping the guy might get up the nerve himself to make a casual move on her but he didn't and I couldn't give him any non-verbal hints that she was receptive. So, there they were sitting nearly side by side on the end of the bed watching the same seen. It was really silly. But just standing there watching my wife sitting on a bed, half dressed with a black guy, both of them watching others fucking, I started to get really excited. I started to think myself, "This is it, it's only a moment away from finally happening! All it will take is something by someone to break the ice!" I tried moving behind Linda and taking off her vest for her to show off her tits again, but she waved me away. I didn't know if she wanted to wait, or wanted someone else to do it, or what, so I backed off (though later she told me that she just didn't feel quite ready). Still, the sexual tension was clearly building between them and my heart was racing.

But then, rather than the ice melting it completely froze over. The blond woman suddenly finished and the man on top of her climbed off while the other man left the room for some reason. With this now over, there we were, all still in the room with several more men poking their heads in. But suddenly this other woman, sorely unattractive and shapelessly obese, came in nude with a fat older guy and started right into it. It pretty well turned us right off and you could practically hear the sexual tension shatter. The whole "moment" between the young man and my wife evaporated. Linda abruptly left the room with me and the other fellow in tow. It was one of those delicate moments and just like that it was lost.

It was about fifteen minutes before the older blonde took another guy back into the room. We soon followed inside and again stood by the wall near the door in front of the bed and watched her take on her fifth or sixth man so far for the evening. But this time I had Linda standing with just her body stocking, and boots. Her tits out as I played with her nipples stood next to her first then started to slowly finger her. She wasn't super wet as I had hoped, but she was wet. The young guy from earlier came in, and stood nearby. As I had planned to possibly do if necessary, I decided it was now time to give things a "push." I pulled Linda's bra down so her tits were exposed and turning to him, I said, "Do these look like the tits of a 40-something year old mother?" He smiled and I encouraged him to take a handful. He started to rub her tits some and play with her nipples. Linda just stood passively against the wall smiling demurely with her hands tamely behind her back. I could feel her getting wetter from the man's attention. Whether she realized it or not she was being very submissive, I gleefully thought. But I was mostly just enjoying the fact that he was touching her. He sat there and never spoke or made much reaction and where we were standing no other men in the area could really get to us. After a minute I finally got him to start playing with her pussy. Another black guy was playing with my naughty wife's wet pussy! But he only touched her lightly here and there and didn't seem to know his way around a clit (as she later confided to me). Despite my silent encouragement, being so passive Linda made no effort to touch him or talk to him or even look at him during the few minute she was feeling her up. When the blonde and her man finished early the young guy stopped to watch, and then as they left the room he went too, and the mood was once more kind of lost.

By this time though, a really hot younger blonde who arrived was getting it on in the other bed room with three guys and most everyone else was now in there watching. With some coaxing I soon managed to get Linda into that room and again she watched from against the wall on the other side. As the blonde was taking on two men under her husband's enthusiastic approval there were about 4 or 5 naked black guys in the room getting their cocks hard, and about 3 or 4 more clothed sitting and watching. I rubbed her shoulders and whispered in her ear, asking if she thought it was hot seeing the younger blonde getting it from behind as she sucked off another black guy. She smiled. Linda smiled and nodded and whispered back, yes, very. I whispered to her that she could do anything she felt like doing right now, or nothing at all if that was her preference.

Within minutes I again had Linda out of her skirt and blouse, so that she was just there in her see-through topless body-stocking. Just nearby, about three feet away there was a guy I knew she found attractive just standing there, his cock almost hard, large, and I tried to get her to go just over to him and start rubbing it for him, as I am sure he would not have minded. I was ready to see her kneel right down to gobble him. But, alas, my wife was just way too nervous and shy still. I offered to lay her on the bed but she shook her head no. As she stood against the wall watching I was playing with her exposed nipples and fingering her clit. At last, I thought, there she was in a room full of black men, her tits and pussy out in the open, getting fingered off, all but ready to start being fucked! Yet, it was obvious to me that she was not fully relaxed, as she was taking forever to get wet. Despite several minute trying I could not manage to get her off. At home I can make her cum in around a minute and I have seem her cum in just 2 or 3 when we were out before. But here tonight, even after ten minutes of this while watching the young blonde, she was still not close to cumming. Not only that, but her clit seemed to completely disappear on me! It retracted like I have never seen it do before. I whispered to ask her if she was okay and she kept saying she was fine. She was wet, but just wasn't relaxed. I knew she was aware it was getting late and that we had to leave within the next 15 minutes. That pressure was ruining it. I knew that she was fully aware that if she climaxed, she would have to be fucked and that I would immediately put her on the empty bed right there and let anyone have a turn on her. There was a bed right there and the room had plenty of willing guys, but my wife was simply too timid and no one was forward enough to come over to her and try to get things going. I was fully prepared to push her on the bed myself, and if need be hold her down for someone to go at her (as I am quite sure she would have found it the very kind of experience she was wishing for). But again, with the clock nearly run out we both kind of quietly knew our chance had come and gone.

I started to admit to myself that it was not going to happen this night, though I could clearly see that the evening was a good one. The party was comfortable enough for her and would likely ensure the next time was the one. Thus, I stopped fingering her and just tried to relax myself, and make her feel comfortable by rubbing her shoulders. Just then, the two guys on the young blonde just finished and with no other guy immediately ready to taker her on, she got up for a moment to get a drink. As she saw Linda she smiled and invited her to come over to the bed with her! I was excited and tried to nudge my wife forward, but Linda was too nervous and politely said thank you, adding firmly that she was just here to watch tonight. The girl tried sweetly to persuade her but Linda responded with a laugh, "I'm not quite ready to take the plunge, but I am learning though!" The cute blonde laughed back and said there was nothing to learn and to just jump in. Linda later told me she was tempted and did really thought about it, but knew it was just getting too late. On the way out of the room the blonde came over and got right up against Linda and put her pretty face and tits right up to hers, for second we both thought she was going to kiss her or reach out, but instead she only invited her to come play as soon as she felt comfortable enough, saying it was alright. We both thanked her but told her we were out of time for the evening, and that our babysitter was waiting. So, we thanked our gracious hosts, said our goodnights and reluctantly headed home.

Later that night, of course, we fucked three times before dawn. The first I said nothing, I just went down on her, licked her to an orgasm within 40 seconds, then fucked her until I climaxed a few minutes later. Then, after awhile, I rolled over on her, found her pussy still soaking wet and fucked her from behind. As I did, I made my wife describe how she liked everything she saw this evening and admit she wished it was her taking on all those guys. I told her I had been prepared to let them and was ready to hold her down for them. Linda made herself cum again with her fingers as I fucked her like this. I told her that had she climaxed at the party she would have then been fucked by any black guy who wanted her. It made her orgasm. In the pre-morning darkness we repeated it all again in the same manner. My balls ached at how hard I had come.

I think next time I will get her to undress more quickly, and mingle more myself with the guys, perhaps giving them more encouragement and advice on getting to her. I know that if she had climaxed, then I would have had her on the bed in an instant and let someone take a turn on her. At one point during the party I had whispered to her that I might take her to the bed and fuck her myself, and she smiled at me. But then I added that once I was done someone else would get a turn, and then it would open house for her. At the time she gave me a look that said it wasn't likely to happen. I think knowing this was true was part of the reason she was not allowing herself to relax enough to climax from my fingering her pussy. We had agreed earlier that at the least this would be an evening of exploration and learning. It was. A very positive one too. At the party Linda had talked at length to our hostess, and had an enjoyable conversation about interracial swinging that did help relax her a bit.

We both agreed we wished more men and more couples had attended as we were told to expect. We also agreed that there were only a few guys there she would have been interested in. And we agreed that the dreadfully unattractive woman had spoiled the mood terribly at that one point. I asked Linda what she could recall thinking and feeling while there that night. She said she felt shy and embarrassed for awhile, and then turned-on several times by just seeing me watching her from across the room. She also said she had pretty much decided that she didn't want to do it with any guy there, that she wasn't ready for "everything," since no one really sparked her interest. But, then she added that she would have let one or another guy "do something and see." I inquired exactly what she meant by this and my wife answered that with the guy on the bed who felt her up, she would have just decided each step of the way as it happened. She also added she felt naughty being there with all the naked black guys and having them see her almost naked, and that it made her wet.

The End of the Year 2007

We had a fun bondage session followed by another long golden shower on the bed. My wife really pleased me this time by taking a good long piss fully on her face and at last finally sticking her tongue out completely several times for me. It was her first true tongue piss! She took a good burst of warm pee all over her tongue and even quickly slurped it back in a few times then spit out once or twice. I even got her to make herself cum while lying there covered in hot wet piss, and then to cum a second time later than night as I squirted on her face some more. I was very satisfied. Later she told me it was very sexy and made her really horny. It was definitely a breakthrough moment for the little piss slut and next time I am sure she will do the ultimate by taking it right in her open mouth as I have so long requested. She all but promised to finally do it. At the least, she is now taking it on her tongue eagerly enough. It was some good hot nasty fucking for us that night. Well see how it goes next.

Just before I had to leave one morning on another business trip, we had a rare quickie in the kitchen. Linda was in her usual conservative office clothes---the kind of outfit that always makes her look sexy to me. I pushed her up against the counter and lifted her skirt. I slipped in her from behind and started to drill her. Very soon after I started she made the comment that I had better get in one last load before I left, since it would be the last for awhile, and besides, would get her "warmed up for all the black guys" who would be "lining up" to fuck her while I' was gone. I moaned at her words and was grinning at how instantly she had gotten so nasty in teasing me that way. It worked as I shot off inside her within a minute imagining how excited just such a scenario might be.

Curiously, the last 15 to 20 times we had sex it was what we call "softies" with no sex talk or verbal fantasizing or roughness at all. It wasn't that I was trying to do it that way or she asked, it just happened on its own. It ended up being a refreshing break, I think. It reenergized us for later.

On one weekend we got to view some porn for the first time in about two months. We ended up watching what was probably a record for us, about 90 minutes worth. That was odd because usually we are both hot within just 15-20 minutes of watching our favorite kind of scenes. But not tonight, nothing was having much effect on Linda. I showed her some new clips of rough sex, with white women being dominated and used harshly, in the way that usually gets her really going. But this night she passed on watching these, saying she was not in the mood for that right now. Eventually, I finally ended up showing her that plantation scene again with the southern belle taking on the two slaves in a barn. Watching it she came really slowly, as I gently fingered her clit. I asked her why she took so long tonight and she said she was just waiting for something to cum too that she liked.

Then we went to the bedroom and I blinded folded her. I was enjoying just firmly fucking her quietly pretty, waiting to see if she how she might respond. After a few minutes Linda turns her head and says she "doesn't know who's fucking" her but that she "knows" it's "not white" because "she can tell a black dick." She then started to says, "use this white pussy" and "use this hole." She got so intense about it that I soon came in a nice long orgasm. In the morning, she climbed on top of me and as she was riding me started to reach around and grab her ass cheeks, telling me she was holding her ass open for black meat to DP her. She started to pretend to talk to another man and tell him to ass fuck her. It was a nasty new thing for her to say and I soon came thinking of it being real.

It was another two weeks before we had sex again. Our time became so cramped and our energy so drained. When we finally did it was just two soft ones in a row. Following this we had to miss yet another two opportunities to attend end of the year interracial play parties because of one of us with a colds or her not being in the mood. These missed occasions led me to make a New Year's resolution to my wife that in 2008 I would see her fucked. I asked what her resolution would be and she said. "for you to see me fucked." That caused us to slip off and start going at it. Soon she was whispering in my ear for me to think about my "white wife legs open, her tight pink pussy spread, taking it, a black shape drilling her in and out" I started to moan and she added, "…his big black cock giving her tight pink pussy a lesson…the way only a big black cock can!' Mmm…it was good. I loved that she was now starting to talk this way. I had to leave town the next morning and knowing this she also started tease me by telling me to think about how some black bull cock was going to be seriously fucking her while I was gone. Mmmm…would that it were true.

My Video Play Tips for Her

As 2007 ended, I thought back how we had neglected our online swing ads, since it was ridiculous for us at present to bother trying to evaluate strangers to meet when we couldn't even manage the time to get ourselves to scheduled parties or events. I also realized we had not gotten her to do any video chatting with any one in the past 9 months for similar reasons. Video chatting should be easy, but getting the technology to work right and finding someone suitable for her in time enough to play, was just still too unpredictable.

I made a short list of what I thought would be so hot to watch Linda doing in a video over the next few months, calling it video play tips. I gave it to my wife one day before I headed out leaving her alone to play with the camera. It described her just playing with her toys as usual, but expressing things she doesn't when I'm with her, or in a manner she can't necessarily when I'm there, so that she opens up to her private lusts and kinky fantasies --- filming it not as a show for me to privately watch later, but as if she were acting the way she might really alone with horny black studs, where one was making her do things or she was letting him do things to her that she doesn't with me, where she might be asking him to do things to her or begging to do things to him that she is shy about with me, but not so here now alone with him. I didn't want her play acting on camera so much as unleashing in private, showing me her own inner perversions or dark fantasies. I describe that she would also dress in a way that made her feel sexy and the whole time talk out loud to the camera --- not as if I were going to watch, not as if it was for me personally, but rather for her black lovers or maybe some interracial porn site they ran. She managed to do this to some degree, filming a delightful 6 and a half minute clip for me (one of her longest ones for me yet) of her talking nasty at the camera, telling the camera what a white whore wife she as for bib black cocks, then getting herself off something powerfully with her dildos. It was really good as she did it all as if it was meant for others to watch rather than me. Then later she did another very similar one, but this time in her favorite dark wig, and pretending she was an Internet porn performer doing the same thing. She did seem to be more relaxed and feeling sexier in the second one.

However, what I was disappointed in, was that my video play tips for her also described that what would really make me shoot off hard is to see or hear her do things in a manner where she wantonly rubs her white wife whoredom in my face. I wanted for a change to see her showing off how horny she is now for black guys, how she gets satisfied "best" from being this way, taunting me that this is her preference, that it's what she really needs, then purposely expressing it without regard for me, as if she doesn't care that I will see it later or doesn't care if I see what a white slut wife she truly is whoring just for dark meat. I wanted to see her getting off imagining or practicing…telling her imaginary lovers or viewers how much bigger or better their nigger cocks are than mine, how theirs is the best ever she' shad, and especially how she actually loves giving head and eating cum or licking ass and doing other nasty things with her black bull lovers ---anything that we have yet to do or that she is still reluctant to do or that she doesn't do with me is a total turn on hearing her hornily say and seeing her eagerly do. I know that my "vanilla topping" is her favorite…but…what sometimes makes that true is if she also gets her fill of "dark chocolate." But, unfortunately she didn't do anything like that remotely. I suppose she either wasn't in the mood to act that way this time or just forgot what play tips I gave her.

I was also thinking a lot how hot it would be to get a video of Linda with me fucking her from behind as she was sucking away on her dildo, telling the camera how much she enjoys sucking black dicks and then, turning around to tell me to fuck her harder like a nigger would, to give it to he the way she prefers it, being black fucked. Then she would talk to the camera again about how she only gives head to dark meat. That would be so hot.

So far, I've decided that watching my wife practice at sucking black dick is the best thing to see. Having her hungrily going at it on her hands and knees, while her cleanly shaved pussy is being fucked by me from behind…wow. Much as I love seeing her try taking her biggest dildo in her mouth, I especially like it when she sucks on her medium sized one that she can take more of deeper, and seeing her spit and slurp on it, alternate rubbing it on her pussy and then sucking again. (Although she has told me she don't enjoy the texture of that one and I need to replace it with a new one soon as we can.) It's best when she then climaxes with one still in her mouth, her head still bobbing on it! I want to see her trying her best to suck one off again, taking it deep and long, gagging herself, moaning and stroking and hornily slobbering on it. I also want to see her actually fucking her dildo again, not just rubbing the shaft over her clit or just inserting the head. Maybe I can persuade her to even film herself pissing on her dildos, really soak them good…then right after lick them clean! She tried pissing on one in the shower once, but she managed to only dribble on it.

The last few video play tips I have her were that I'd especially really like to see her try to ass fuck herself with one of her dildos…lube it all up and work it in as she talks about it, perhaps with it tied to the bedpost or standing up in the board I made to hold them in place so she can ride it. Or at some point wearing her nipple clamps and her sub collar then smacking her own titties and spanking her naked shaven pussy as she cums. That would be so hot. She does it when we are together sometimes…but I'd love to se her go at it more intensely when she was playing alone and fantasizing. Mmmmm. That's what I'd like to see on video.

The New Year 2008

So, by the 1st of the month there we were alone in the kitchen after having our nasty session, and I remark on when we would be able to schedule the time to make either of the next two play parties or get to the sex club again as originally planned. Linda remarked that timing was the whole issue, and agreed it all had to line up right for us. I commented we would probably only get this month to go to the club and not the play party. Then, out of the blue Linda responded that was okay, because she added, "I've got to be in the mood, because I know if I go back I'm going to have to do it." My mouth dropped and I grinned from ear to ear and grabbed my cock in my pants. I couldn't believe she said it the way she did it was so good to hear. It was as firm a commitment to it as she has ever made. She laughed, realizing what it was she said. I just smiled and said happily well, sweety, that's fine, we'll get you there soon enough and get you what you need. Then jokingly I added, "We'll get you one, then keep them coming." She laughed too, but replied, "I don't know if I can do that, hon, we'll see how the first goes." I couldn't argue with that!

That night our sex was hot as we made a nasty video of her playing with her toys until she came, then me coming over and fucking her while she pretended to give a serious cum licking blow job to her black cock vibrator. I have to say she was especially enthusiastic and the most vigorous at it yet. The next day we did another one that was even nastier with her talking to the camera again about her fantasies and tastes. I told her this one would go online and she told me it made her feel slutty and wet to think of all the black guys out there who might be stroking off to her telling what a white cunt whore she was…

We missed yet another weekend chance to go to the sex club, this time because Linda was feeling exhausted and had a headache. She felt bad about it, but what could I do. We didn't have an overnight sitter again for the next evening either, so we had to skip that chance as well. She apologized and as a consolation all but promised that come February we would do everything we could and anything we had to, to get to a party and make things happen. We'll see. That made me think, I wonder how different this chronicle / journal will be once at last she actually starts fucking black men for real?

She Gets Off at the Sex Club

We at last managed to make it to the local sex club, our second real visit there. We went on Friday night since that was when single men could attend. On advice we also purposely went after midnight to be sure to be there at the hour of most action and attendance. Linda seemed in a good mood over all. We got there and very soon went back to the locker rooms and got undressed. It was already feeling busy. We went into the play area and quickly went back to the hot tubs. The pool area was surprisingly empty. We saw a few black guys her and there but they were not to her interest, being just too old or too chubby. We got in the pool for a while but the room was way too chilly, as the heat wasn't on and the cold water on the floor puddle up to become frigid. So, we walked around a bit but ended up back at the pool. I tried to get Linda to go sit in a hot tub when we saw several black couples and one interracial couple there. But as usual she was way too nervous and intimidated to go with me. Some really cute women were making out in the pool and we just floated around and watched them. They were very sexy to watch and I chatted with them briefly but they were only interested in each other and their husbands who were watching.

Linda suggested we go off to one of the private rooms, which relay irked me, and I complained to her that we did not come to a sex club to go off and have sex alone. We could do at home. I felt annoyed she even suggested it. This turned out to be a foreshadowing of what would end up being a pretty wasted and lousy evening for me. At one point I took Linda over to the large canopy bed near the pool we had used on an earlier visit. I was going to fuck her there and let the black men around watch, hoping that perhaps one or two might sit down near her and start to reach out. But as we got over there it was like pouring chum into the water: all the sharks immediately started to circle. We had three white guys and two fat Hispanic guys and two chubby black guys flock around us. It made us both uncomfortable and self-conscious so we never even got started.

The pool area seemed to have gotten even colder and Linda went back in the water. I watched her from the side for a while until at once point I saw a dark black guy in decent shape. I said hello to him and pointed out my wife in the pool, suggesting maybe he go and say hello if he wanted, that maybe she might be interested some. He seemed surprised and confused by my suggestion at first, then told me to tell her to come out of the pool because he "didn't like the water." I laughed to myself and from that point on just ignored him. If he was hanging around the pool at a sex club but unwilling to get himself wet even to possibly fuck a woman, then to hell with him. Linda saw me talking with him and started to give me a disapproving look anyway. Again, this annoyed me and I told her later that she needed to stop it. The whole point of our being at the club was to meet men and I told her I was going to make the attempt for her. As it turned out though, he was not her type, as she said didn't do anything for her. After the guy tried several times throughout the night to talk with us, I finally just waved him off and flatly told him she wasn't interested.

I saw several intriguing women I would have loved to have drilled and a few black guys I would not at all have minded seeing do my wife good. I tried to get Linda to go into the large orgy room, as there was some hot action going on in there with several black guys. But this time for some reason she was not at all interested in being in the room. Eventually, back in the pool area there were several attractive black couples in the hot tubs, but again Linda refused to go near them, telling me she was uncomfortable just going over to one when other people were already in it. I tried explaining to her that this was the whole point of the club, but it didn't convince her or shake her anxiety. Instead, I had to sit and watch as every opportunity passed us and other couples or single guys moved in to take the place I wanted us to fill. Eventually, there were two attractive black couples getting together in one tub and I saw a perfect opportunity for us to just go and sit with them, to relax and maybe see where things lead. But again, Linda vetoed me and resisted my effort to move her. As we just sat on a futon nearby and watched this go on, Linda eventually started to play with herself. Soon I was helping her out. A dark tall black guy, who looked very African, was walking around with a hard-on most of the evening. We had joked he must have taken his Viagra because nobody keeps a boner that stiff for hours like that just walking about and sitting around. Although Linda expressed she did not find him appealing, and pointed out his cock was bent, she did admit it was pretty big. He came and sat across from her and stared intently at her as she was fingering her pussy.

He was soon stroking himself and the two of them were locked eyes to one another's hands. She spread her legs farther at my command so he could see her more clearly. I watched her eyes to be sure she was actually watching him. She never looked at his face, just his cock. I whispered in her ear to ask if she was watching him and she told me, yes. I also made answer me that he had a big black cock and that it made her wet. I teased her about her wanting to reach out and touch it, telling her she should, but she said, no. I told her that he was definitely wanting to get at her wet pink pussy. Linda began feverishly fingering her clit now, holding her pussy open with the other hand. She moaned and I pulled on her nipples and teased her more about letting him come over and fuck her right there. I asked again if she wanted him but she said emphatically no, whispering she just wanted to watch and be watched. As this went on it started to get pretty sexy, and she reached over to stroke my erection some. But as I looked around us now three or four white and two hispanic guys had circled around our futon, jerking off. They were getting uncomfortably close ---I mean, I was actually concerned one of them would shoot off on me. Linda was aware of them too but was tuning them out by focusing just on the black guy in front of her. He was mere feet away and he knew she was only paying him attention. That encouraged him and he started to move forward. He touched her foot but she jerked it back and he got the signal that (unfortunately) she was only here to be seen.

Within a minute Linda started to cum. I had told she better not stifle it, that I wanted to hear her. Sure enough, she came so loudly that most of the people in the room and the pool next to us turned heads to see who had climaxed so nicely. Right afterwards she rolled over and held onto me with her eyes shut. At this point I knew my wife wanted to be fucked and normally I would have done it right there, but the futon was pretty uncomfortable and the room still way too cold, with all the frigid water right there around us on the floor. I wanted to move over to the hot tubs but once more Linda vetoed me. So, I just sat there, feeling a little annoyed. Soon enough I saw the two black couples I had been watching in one tub joined by a third interracial one, and then by a single woman. The seven of them were having an orgy in the hot tub where I had wanted us too to be. A cute slender black woman was being fingered by the white guy while the two other black girls were going at each other as their husbands watched. Soon the slender black girl was sucking on one black guy as the white guy fucked her from behind. The other two couples also starting fucking. Sadly to write, the more I watched al this the more annoyed I became that Linda had rejected my earlier suggestions of us going over there. The other hot tubs were equally occupied now and yet there we sat, surrounded by these desperate chubby white guys staring hungrily at her. I felt a deep swelling of resentment and envy that was terribly distasteful. Linda had already gotten off, but I hadn't nor had we fucked at all. I was so disappointed in how uncomfortable this was making me that I became embarrassed as well as angry. I quietly told Linda off and trying to express how I was extremely upset at her attitude, I angrily scolded her. Trying to cool down I walked off leaving her there by herself. But the more sex I saw, the more people I saw enjoying themselves the way we weren't, the more relaxed couples I saw having fun, the more disgusted I became with my wife's foolish and unfair attitude. We left shortly after that.

I told Linda we would not be returning to a sex club until she made a vow to do what I waned to, to go anywhere I wanted, to talk to anyone I wanted, and sit with anyone I wanted her to. On the way home I reprimanded her severely over how supportive and protective and compromising and understanding I had been with her for so long over all this. I reminded her how much I was allowing her to indulge herself but that she was repaying me with unwarranted intransigence and anxiety that was completely ill-placed. All I wanted was for us to go and enjoy together the erotic intimacy of being in a hot tub with other couples and women while they had sex and we had sex. It didn't mean I was going to suddenly throw her to anyone or force her to do anything and she surely knew that. But, she sure robbed me of any chance of having any fun myself. So, the evening was a total disaster in my opinion, even though my wife did take another step closer to our goal. I was still so upset at her we didn't even have sex that night and I slept in another room. I told her the next day that clearly she still has too many issues for us to be going to a sex club. In hindsight at least we made up the next day and she agreed I was in the right and she was wrong to veto my requests or defy me over such simple matters. She apologized for embarrassing me and for failing us, then promised that next time she would do what I wanted. We'll see. I plan not to go to the sex club and waste our evening and money until I know she has freed herself enough to play with others. I will not take her back there again until such time as she has finally fucked someone else at a play party first. I am convinced now that until that barrier is broken she will just never relax enough to allow anything to happen at a club. I am just really, really tired of waiting on her to finally feel comfortable. It's been too long.

My Moody Wife

Being in her mid-forties now, my wife is now unfortunately experiencing that mature time of her life where women go through a lot of changes. It's wrecking her moods, sapping her energy, and making planning almost impossible for us. I never know how she will be from one day or week to another. It's severely affecting our sex life that is already strained by lack of free time. I feel bad for her but I can't do anything. One silver lining perhaps is that when we do get the chance for sex, she pretty much expects and accepts it is now almost entirely nasty kinky sex. The last two times we had sex it was somewhat spontaneous and opportunistic and we just had normal vanillas sex, as it had been weeks since the last time. But, if we can plan for it at all, then its now always somewhat to do with interracial fantasies, bondage, rough discipline, or piss play. I can't argue with that. In anticipation I made some special DVDs of her favorite 1970s and 1980s interracial sex clips to surprise her with the next time we watch porn.

One morning even, after not having had time or freedom to have sex for about two weeks, we finally started going at it. Right away she tells me that if I wanted to fuck her that I would have to take her. I immediately forced myself on top on her and rammed my hard cock inside her. She struggled and resisted, telling me. "No, no, no!" but she loved it. I called her names as I reamed her roughly as I held her arms down as strongly as I could. I even thought of slapping her face a few times and really wanted to. I almost did, but the thought of it alone was enough to make me climax. Afterwards, she told me it was really good and that my dick felt especially hard. I asked her if that would have been okay for her and Linda replied that as long as I didn't slap her face hard it was okay now. That got me stiff again.

Another curiosity, as a result of our bad time at the sex club, Linda promised that as a present the next time we did some piss play sex she would at long last open her mouth! I will finally get to fill it. Her agreeing after all this to let me piss right in her mouth was pretty exciting. But the evening we planned to do it ended up getting interrupted. So far we had not had the chance for her to prove her promise and I am skeptical. But, she did make such tremendous progress the last time, sticking her tongue out and even lapping a little, so I figured it was an inevitability and believe now she is honestly turned on by the whole idea.

When the night finally arrived, it was short and intense, but Linda did not disappoint. She immediately stuck out her tongue and for two or three seconds opened her mouth. While she didn't take it all directly in, she did lap it up, allow it to splash around several times, and spit out some while its splashed her face. She struggled only briefly, coughed and sputtered once or twice but kept up a smile. Afterward I fucked her and she told me it made her feel sexy and dirty and promised to do it again. Pretty nice I thought, brief as it was.

The next morning in bed I was soon on top of her. Before we started to go at it she pulled a pillow over her head. I love it when she does that if I know that she is going somewhere else in her mind, and not just trying to let me pretend I'm with someone else. I soon knew from her moaning that she was fantasying she was with someone else. With that realization I grew even harder. Then, to my surprise, Linda started to squeeze and slap her tits. She really went at it, more so than I have ever seen her do before. She reddened one pretty nicely and the sounds of her palm smacking across her nipple was extremely arousing to me. I could hear her squeal and cry as she went on. The more she slapped them the harder I fucked her. She went at it faster and I knew she was really turned on. I soon climaxed powerfully. Afterwards, I told her, "Damn, that was hot, you really were into it!" She giggled with embarrassment and admitted she was pretty turned on and was indeed thinking of some stranger doing her hard, holding her down and forcibly spanking her tits. I liked that.

Later that week, when I mentioned the possibility of a play party this month, Linda got moody again and dismissed the idea. But before I could utter a word she caught herself and told me that what she meant was that she didn't always know ahead of time if she was going to be in the right mood for a party, and so it was difficult for her to plan because she didn't want to go to another one unless she was in the mood for sure, since she had promised herself that the next one we went to would be THE ONE where she WOULD fuck someone. I couldn't complain about that. I told her it was fine, that she had every right to be as moody as she wanted and that I preferred her be in the proper mood when we finally went again (Hell, with her nowadays I never know if she will be in the right mood even as we are leaving the house the night of any party or club visit!).

Winter / Spring 2008 - Her New Favorite Black Vibrator

I got around to finally getting Linda a new black vibrator dildo. The one I chose for her was lifelike but not made of any of the materials that earlier seemed to irritate her skin. It was only seven inches long and a more realistic thickness than her other humongous ones and I thought this might encourage her to actually insert it. It turned out to have a cord attached for the battery control, which the catalog picture online did not show it having. At first that disappointed us, since it's inconvenient, but as it turned out this kind actually allowed Linda to better control the speed by hand. And because the batteries were external, this apparently made more room inside for a more powerful vibrating mechanism. Linda got on the bed with the new toy mounted on the wooden board I have made for her to use as a dildo stand. Then she slowly started to ride it so that just the head was rubbing her clit and pussy hole. She instantly exclaimed, "Wow"!" then added, "Whoa!…Oh my!" The next few seconds I could see she was lost in pleasure. She turned the controls up high and to my delight, made herself scream to orgasms in literally under a minute. She kept panting and shaking afterwards, and then within another minute got right back on and made herself cum again in a mere 30 or 40 seconds! I have never seen my wife cum twice so strongly and so rapidly one after the other as I witnessed her do with this vibrator. I fucked her good right after and her pussy was very wet. She then told me she really liked her new toy and was very pleased with it. It's now her new favorite. A few days later she confessed to me she quickly used it when she was alone for an hour once afternoon. I grinned and called her a slut. She's done it twice more since.

Her First Squirting Pussy

The next time we had the chance for her to play with her new toy while I watched, Linda again made herself cum powerfully in under two minutes, then followed up half a minute later by making herself orgasm a second time, this one also happening in under a minute. As she did she pulled the dildo out several times to lick and suck on it and to get it wet. As I watched, I knew she was aware that it turned me on when she sucks on any black dildo and especially when she did so out of her pussy. In fact, it made me hard to consider how she was sucking her pussy juices off this black dildo far more than she had ever done from off my own real cock at any time in the history of our sex lives. Linda also started to stick the dildo inside her pussy, pushing it in deeper in her hole than I had seen her previously do with any of her other dildos. She had it in a good 3 inches as she made herself climax the second time. She talked about being black fucked the whole time too. But what was truly amazing on this occasion was that just after she climaxed her second time, between cries she blurted out in surprise, "Oh! …I peed!" Sure enough, there on the sheets right in front of her she had squirted a huge gush of piss and pussy juices all over the bed. I could only manage, "Wow...that's so hot, honey." She smiled and collapsed back on the bed still shaking from her two orgasms and astonished at having squirted. She had never ever done that before. A few minutes later I got on top to fuck her and not surprisingly her pussy was the absolute wettest I have ever felt.

Our Best Piss Slut Ever

One weekend evening we were alone and Linda had agreed to play piss slut again. This time she promised to completely open her mouth for me. She did not disappoint. She was very obedient and nasty. Although she only kept it open for a second or two, she definitely took my full stream of warm piss right in her mouth and all over her lips and tongue for several seconds before I showered her face and hair and tits. Twice that evening she took shots right in her mouth and never complained or gagged. It was an incredible turn on and a long time coming. I made her beg and thank me for allowing her to be such a piss slut. And then I made her promise that she would open her mouth every time for it from now on. She agreed. I reached down to feel her pussy and was delighted to find it wet. She grinned and said, "Told you." At one point she was sucking my cock head and licking, and I let a squirt loose that went down her throat and she jumped, but said nothing and gave a little cough. I was pleased to know that she had definitely swallowed some and accepted it right from my cock head. Good girl. Her training is going well. While wee were relaxing in the tub before and during our nasty playtime that evening, I also pissed some in her wine for her too, and she drank it without hesitation or complaint this time. We had a very sexy evening and a hot fuck. Linda was the best piss slut she has ever been.

Early May 2008

So far this year our plans to get out to a party or club have been a total bust. Everything falls apart at the last minute. It's made my mood very sour. It's very frustrating. We've missed several promising events in April and May we had planned to attend. But, June looks very god as we have made arrangements at last to be alone for over a week and the timing looks excellent to get to a play part as well as a club. If so, according to Linda this will be the one where it happens.

I pointed out to my wife that most every time we have sex now, practically 8 out of 10 times, and certainly the last 15 or 20 times we have had sex, she has continued to indulge in our black sex fantasy. It's become far more than just a fantasy for us. It's definitely our obsessive fetish.

One night after half a dozen 1980s interracial porno clips failed to excite her, at Linda's request we watched a porno clip I had told her about featuring a mature blonde wife who has to pay off her husband's gambling debt by submitting to a dominant black bull. Linda was particularly intrigue by it and watched a lot of her sucking the guy off for quite awhile ---something she almost always fast forwards through or skips entirely. She eventually made herself cum while watching, once more climaxing twice in a short period from the new super vibrator. I fucked her good and hard after this, and when I was done my sticky cum load was dripping all out of her pussy and she noticed it and started to play with it. She had actually never done that before. It was nice. It was at this point that I also noticed that Linda is talking more and more about having a black guy tongue her clit and suck on her pussy while she is playing. She never really use to bring it up but it's been something she has been fixated on for that last half dozen times or so. Interesting.

I took some photos of Linda wearing some sexy lingerie and sporting her black "queen of spades" temporary tattoo. I have to say for a woman approaching her late 40s she still looks good to me and still gets me hard. But, Linda's general moodiness is becoming increasingly unpleasant now as she continues to suffer through the "change." Let's just say the stress of dealing with the physical discomforts that arrive at this "stage of life" for a woman of her age has not been easy on her. It's killing her sex drive and making her more and more testy. I am patient with her though and we both know it will end eventually.

We skipped about 12 days without having sex. Plus, worse is that Linda declined our best chance yet to attend yet another play party this month. We had good timing and opportunity but she didn't feel like going this time. As she put it, she just wasn't "in the mood for all that stuff right now." I couldn't argue with that, given her present condition and her promise to actually participate the next time we went, plus my belief in her sincerity to do that. But even though I have to accept she choose when to go and when not to go, I still was greatly disappointed. I definitely want her in the right mood and frame of mind when we finally do. She at least repeated her promise that this summer should be a better time for us, when the kids are out of town and we are free to relax and get her mentally (emotionally) prepared. I told her it frustrated me, and that I was getting impatient, but she responded that I would just have to wait a little longer. She wasn't going to force herself to go and that I wouldn't want her if she wasn't feeling in the right mood. I had to agree.

One afternoon this week we were alone and Linda got in bed with her old blue toy vibe to warm up while I watched. After a few minutes playing however, she said to me to go and get her "new one" - meaning the black super vibe with the cord control. She was playing with it for a few minutes as I watched closely. Then she asked me to use it on her. I tried but I was too awkward, and did not have the right touch. I decided to save that for another time as I would prefer to just fuck her with it while she was tried up and restrained. I told her to wet it but she gave it only a light quick lick. I suggested she try and wear some nipple clamps, and to my delight she agreed. I put them on her then we went ahead and fucked from behind with her on all fours as she used the new vibe on her clit. Knowing her tits were clamped made me stiff. As I suspected and hoped, they worked wonders on her as she came long and powerfully. I was very satisfied with how she climaxed and continued to drive myself in and out of her. On my instructions a half minute later she had the vibe back on her clit again. I could feel the vibe against her through my balls. Half a minute later she climaxed a second time! I followed seconds after myself. When we were through I asked Linda if the clamps felt good and she said yes, that they hurt a little but were nice. We will use them more often now, I expect. I hope she uses them on her own when I am away. I also realized then that each of the four times she has now used the toy so afar she has made herself cum twice, but this time was the soonest she has ever cum one after the other in perhaps 7 or 8 years that I can remember. I thought that, despite her moodiness and her lack of interest lately, she was maturing in her orgasms. She seems to be cumming harder, longer, and more frequently through her new toy.

Late May 2008

I made a long video clip compilation of Linda sucking on her black dildoes and practicing oral sex with them while playing with herself or being fucked by me. I then spliced it with clips of her saying that she "only sucked black cock", and didn't "suck white dick" as well as telling me what a slut she would be with a dark thick prick in her mouth, but how she would not suck my dick. It got me especially hot and hard to see her and hear be like that. It made her seem so dirty and slutty and made me what to teach the teasing bitch cunt whore a lesson by using her hard and rough. ...Whew. We are definitely on to something here with this.

This brings me to something that has been in the back of my mind for a while now: I recall during the early part of our last visit to the sex club while we were floating close together in the pool, and I told my wife something that wasn't easy for me to express. But at that intimate moment I felt very relaxed and close to her. I whispered in Linda's ear that there was something for her to remember that sometime would make me rock stiff and cum hard. But, alas, she apparently forgot it all, because some weeks afterward when I inquired as to why she never mentioned any of what I had whispered in the pool that night, she confessed she didn't remember, that it was all just a blur. It's understandable, given how poorly the last visit ended for us. It's no surprise it slipped her mind. I had wondered why she never brought it up, though.

Anyway, what I had told her that night was that it would really turn me on if: after seeing a black guy that night -- or at some other time -- she were to later whisper in my ear while we were having sex how she bet that guy could really fuck her something great, that he probably could drive his fat black cock into her like she's never had it before, give her what she really wants and use her pussy better than my dick ever has. I would then pretty much shoot off in a heartbeat. I also told her that if when I was inside her she started to tell me that she just knew that black guy with his bigger thicker cock could fuck her harder and deeper than I did in the way she really needs but can't and doesn't get from me, well, it would make me so rock hard I would likely blow my load in seconds. I finished by telling her to remember this. Unfortunately it was forgotten. The thought, though, that my wife might sometime be so selfishly wicked as to make such teasing slights at me, expressing her dissatisfaction with "white meat," is so deliciously whorish and totally slutty. It's a little embarrassing to admit but, I find it strangely exciting, and suspect she would it too.

Late one night we had a quickie in bed and in the dark Linda climbed on top and faced away from me. She started to slowly ride me and as she did she took to heart the above sentiment, which I had gotten her to read. She whispered she wanted to "turn around so that" she could "imagine it was a black cock" she was fucking. Very quickly she started talking about how she "could always tell a white cock" that it "was just not the same as a big black one." I started to get excited and grow harder at the new direction she was going with this. She added, "You can feel the difference, a chocolate cock is so thick and big, you can feel the difference." Then she added, "It's just not the same as fucking a white one…black cock manhandles your pussy!" At that I started to moan and she started to ride me harder and faster now as she went on. "Black cock goes, bitch, I'm taking over every inch, my black cock is gonna fuck that little pink hole and take it over, you'll never want white dick again, and he's right!" I was quietly listening and savoring every word as my slutty white mature wife showed me her nastiest side. She went one, moaning herself now and pumping her hips, saying, "Black cock owns this pussy, owns it, owns it!" Then with her breath panting, she started to cry out louder, "Black son of a bitch, it's all yours, you black fucking son of a bitch, this pussy is all yours, it belongs to your god damn black cock, every inch, give me every inch of it, fuck me good!" By this point I was already spent. It was a new thrill though for me, and obviously something exciting for her as well, I could tell. I recorded the audio of the whole thing on our video camera.

A few days later, one afternoon we got the chance to sneak in another quickie. We were in bed with the room dark and Linda quickly use her new vibe toy to climax before lying there for me to use her. As I mounted Linda and started to ride her she started to tease me, asking if I thought I could fuck her "as good as" her black stud. Almost immediately she started to talk about how she was fantasizing she was riding big black meat. She started quietly talking about how it was "the best" because it "filled her up" and that black cock knew "how to own her pussy." My wife then added how "only black cock could truly satisfy" her. She really got into it and naturally it was very sexy. She was teasing me that "pretty soon" that was all she was "going to want," and how that was all that could satisfy her because only black dick "knew" how to "really own" her pussy and knew how to "take" her. As we went at it she continued, saying only black cock could "fill her up", fill her mouth and her pussy and make her really wet. As she talked about how it filed her mouth until it exploded I moaned and said, "You don't suck my cock or eat my cum," and she replied instantly, "No, I don't. That's because I only suck thick, black, hard, mother fucking nigger cock!" I moaned even more loudly at this and fucked her harder. She cried out telling me I was really pounding her and said, "Drill it, baby, drill it." I grunted and laid into her more. She caught her breath and cried out again, saying she couldn't wait to be black fucked soon. I called her a slut and she replied, "That's, fucking bitch slut, to you!" I moaned again and felt myself get even harder. She reached up and grabbed both of her black dildos lying near her pillow and started to lick their heads. As she slurped on them she kept telling me how she loved sucking dark meat, that it was the "only thing" for her, that it "was the best." So at that I of course came quickly such that it was over almost as soon as it began. I came hard and long and she squealed as I shot my load inside her. My wife was such a nasty slut.

June 2008 As summer came, we had the opportunity one afternoon to be alone for a little while. Linda asked that we not do anything elaborate, and by that I knew she meant not do anything with her toys, or dressing up sexy, or getting out the video camera. But, I figured it didn't exclude me blindfolding her and tying her up. So, I did just that. I then put nipple clamps on her and started to use her new vibrator dildo on her clit. I lubed it up and forced it roughly, she yelped a bit as it was apparently too rough, despite it being a little smaller than I am. I eased up and after awhile she started to respond. I turned up the power on it and then fucked her with it all the way in. She moaned and cried out and within a minute was climaxing. Pulling out the toy I got on top of her and used her hole until I came myself. It was good. But the next day she was sore and her pussy experienced a great deal of discomfort. No doubt in reaction to the dildo. This made her not want to do that again for awhile.

A week later one Sunday morning we started to fool around before getting out of bed. I kept thing very quiet and soft, making not a word, and doing nothing but casual foreplay. Once we had started though, Linda on her own again first started to pull her nipples then went on to slap her tits and moan and cry. She went on like this as she started to tell me to "fucking ram her cunt" while saying "fuck this bitch slut." I obliged and enjoyed it. But afterwards, later that day I reminded her that she had instigated things, whereas I was trying to keep it all quite vanilla.

As the summer unfolds now, we have made plans to be alone for eight days, and fortunately a play party is scheduled for one of the weekends. We expect to attend and Linda is under the understanding that she is going this time to actually participate. The only stipulation of course is the usual one: she has to meet someone she finds attractive and she doesn't do anything she doesn't want to. When we discussed going this time, Linda asked me, "So, what happens if after I do this, I decide that I don't want to do it again?" I laughed. Then I answered that first we'll wait and see when that time actually comes. So far our plan is to go to the play party on one weekend, and getting to the sex club on the other, while in between just enjoying ourselves alone at home, likely doing some bondage. Things look promising and are certainly in place, but past disappointment shave taught me to not get my hopes up until we are really there. This time though, we will not arrive too early, and once we are at the party, I will be sure to get my wife naked as soon as possible. I've already told her to expect this. She will be wearing something very slutty and minimal. This time I will also be more active in helping the guys meet her and make moves on her whenever I can instead of sitting and watching her expecting her to be approached or flirt on her own. I will take her to a bed and hold her down for someone to use at first if I have to.

She may like that. She may need that. Meanwhile, to keep myself in the frame of mind, for my own entertainment I put together a 90 minute long compilation video of my wife playing with her dildoes, sucking on them, and talking nasty alone or while I am fucking her.

Before the Second Interracial Play Party

It's a few days before our attending the play party and we are enjoying our week alone. As an older couple with young kids, sending them away for even a week during the summer is invaluable. So far this week we've more or less just watched porn, slept naked, enjoyed good wine, and had great sex. We didn't a little bondage, and some nasty piss play (her most committed so far). For the first time we got our webcam working both ways without trouble, and Linda was able at last to see and be seen by a young black guy hung. Although he wasn't exactly her type, didn't have any audio for her to hear him, and she wasn't able to get off while he watched, he did cum with her help and tell us he was very sexy and nasty. It was a good experience and made her pretty wet. As we wait for the weekend, I am pretty calm and not letting myself get too excited and over enthusiastic. I will hold that off until we actually get to the party. But I do expect that this will indeed be the time she finally goes all the way. I know she is ready and willing and able. All I can do now is wait.

As it is now, hours before the party, I think back over the last few days. We have had fun, she has been very nasty a few times, confessing her desire to be fucked hard by some fat black cock, and at others not in the mood. At one point she teased me ferociously as she played with her toys, telling me it wouldn't be long now before she was no longer a "black cock virgin" and that I had to be careful, because once she had black she might not want anything else, that "white might not ever satisfy her again", and how she might be "sneaking out on me to get some." It was amusing and titillating at the same time for both of us. Then later she got serious at one point and again expressed her anxiety about tonight, her desire to not have me make her feel pressured, and even said that if she does go through with it tonight it doesn't necessarily mean she may want to ever do it again for all she knows. I said, no problem, thinking we will cross that bridge when it comes.

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