It has been a year since I have been able to update Dark Cavern readers with reports of my mission and my wife's journey. I am happy to say I will be giving more frequent accounts now that our lives have finally settled into a much more relaxed and less stressed routine.

The Dream

So far everything I have chronicled here in this journal has been genuinely real and accurate. But as of early 2004 now I feel the urge to record a dream I had. It was a most vivid and realistic dream and relates directly to the topic of this journal. I was out of town and about 5:30 am I awoke with my heart racing and pulse pounding and my cock raging hard. I had dreamt we were back at the adult club and Linda was wearing some sexy black skirt and a short jacket of some sort over a sheer blue top with some sort of silvery floral pattern. She had no bra on and her full tits were visible with her nipples clearly hard. When she removed her blouse so everyone could get a good look at her wares. We were sitting in the back of the darkened theater of the club, on a large black leather couch. I was rubbing her all over and nibbling her neck as the movie played and a few scattered couples and men sat around in the rows in front. To my right a few feet away there was a dark man sitting and to Linda's left some ways away a dark figure sat alone. I knew she knew he was there watching as I began to twist and pull her nipples through her sheer blouse the way she likes. She started to really get into it knowing we were being watched and parted her legs some as I began rubbing up and down her creamy firm thighs massaging the soft flesh. Her legs felt warm and sexy and I felt the silkiness of her skin and pushed her legs further apart. She obligingly spread them and I brushed my hand up against the small bikini panties t feel them incredibly moist already.

Then I started to slip my hand up under her shirt and really squeeze and feel her tits, rubbing each one back and forth all over as we kissed and our tongues played slowly in her mouth. With my other hand I then began to pull up my wife's shirt so that her tits were exposed and open for anyone in the dark room to take a look at. Her smooth alabaster skin glowed blue in the dim light of the screen and I saw the man at the other end fumble in his pants to release his hard on and start stroking a she watched her. As I began to finger my wife's soaking wet clit and she relaxed with her head back and eyes closed, I nodded to the man on the left of her to move closer and he did so without hesitation. She didn't react to his presence and after a moment he just reached over and with his left hand softly palmed my wife's naked tit. In the dream her reaction was only to look down slowly at his hand on her and heave in response to his touch. This encouraged him and he began feeling her tits all over then rubbing her exposed thighs. At this point I feverishly worked her clit and she began to spread her legs farther and moan softly, pushing against my finger as the stranger's dark hands explored her. He then slowly picked up her hand and placed it gently on his hard cock where she instantly started to caress him. I turned at this point to see the man to my right also working his own bare cock and staring at us.

So I slowly stood and turned to motion him to take my place. He did and was on her quickly rubbing her thighs and sucking her bare tit. I sat and leaned forward watching with amazed excitement as the two men rubbed and felt and squeezed my wife all over, her hands grabbing their hard black dicks all the while, her head moaning side to side as they alternated sucking her tits and her ear lobes. Suddenly she began to quiver and moan and then exploded in orgasm as both of them worked her moist slit. I knew that having cum so hard she would be wildly hot for stiff cock inside her immediately, as she always gets after she climaxes. I knew they would surely be fucking her next right then and there.

At that point my heart racing, and my breath pounding, I literally shot awake as if from a nightmare, but this was erotic pleasure dream. My cock was so hard it literally hurt and in the morning darkness I quickly jerked off splattering my chest and sheets in less than 30 seconds to one of the best climaxes I have ever had alone. The dream was so real, so powerful…It's echo remained with me for several more hours so that twice again before dawn I had to masturbate myself for release.

A Return Visit to Dark Cavern

A week or so later, we managed to have the opportunity to go online together and visit the DC site again. She took her time exploring some more but after awhile I controlled the navigation and we looked at a few things. What seemed to catch her eye the most was the personal ads from other women and couples. When she saw her own photos in the White Princesses and Cum on Me sections she couldn't get over how nasty she looked. I asked if she was turned on knowing all those black men out there were eyeing her and she gave me a soft, "yes." Unfortunately, the update that week was rather uninspiring (too many fat chicks again) and so we switched over to looking at some of the 3 gigabytes worth of interracial porn videos I had been downloading the past year. I showed Linda a few of my favs and a few new ones. As I sat behind her, caressing her here and there, I started to play with her pussy. She found a clip she liked and remarked that the quality of the porn on the computer I had was better than anything we had on VHS or DVD. I had to agree and commented that I searched for the best and only kept what I liked. As she watched a slinky redhead bounce up and down on a dark muscular stud, I noted at last, that Linda was really wet, finally. Then she said, " I really like this one…I like it when they're on top" meaning the women riding the men. I made a mental note of this as it was the first time she had ever expressed any such sentiment, and she seldom, if ever rode on me, and only two or three times had rode manage to make me cum that way. So, I made a passing remark , of "Oh really? You like seeing them ride it like that" And she answered, "Yeahhhhh…" as she continued to undulate her drenched cunt onto my fingers. I liked her comment and I decided that I would try to look for more such video clips. I figured there must be something particularly erotic and nasty about the taboo of a white women wanting that black dick so bad to climb on it and use it, to give that guy some of her good stuff or whatever. Right then she came for me, very long and hard, and pretty loud in a way she hadn't done for many weeks. She must have really liked that clip. I quickly took her away and fucked her to my hearts content.

More Camera Time Fun

One evening we were alone and Linda dressed up in a sexy soft bit of flowery lingerie and we took a lot of photos. She looked as good as I have ever seen her and the photos turned out to be some of the very best ever. I managed to post some online at DC and we got some email response. The reaction told her how hot she was and then mistook the pics for an actually ad seeking sex partners. One of the exciting things we did that night was finally get in some "wife writing" which I had been wanting to do for a long time. I took a blue water-based erasable marker and wrote all over her tits and belly and thighs ass with phrases like "slut whore" and "cunt bitch for black cock." And I drew arrows to her pussy and ass saying "For black dicks only", etc. It was exciting and she was a good sport about it. Though, the marker proved messier than expected and the blue started to rub off all over and was difficult to remove. We also took many pics of her with her black rubber dildo. These were the best ones yet, and I was overjoyed at how much potential there was in them for making excellent new fake pics with them. Linda posed in all manner of positions specially arranged for me to make good fakes from, sucking and licking and rubbing the dildo the whole time. Although it would be months before I had the chance to work with them later, just looking at these hot photos on their own sometimes gets me so hard I stroke off to the whole set! I love it when she looks at the camera knowingly with lust in her eyes as she does it and aware of how hot it makes me. I also video taped her briefly playing with her tits and talking spontaneously right to the camera. Boy, did Linda turn me on with that. While only 45 seconds long, I must have jacked off to that short clip about a dozen times by now. She's covered in nasty writing and talks about wanting to have her pussy licked and tits sucked by a black guy with his head between her legs, and then says because she "knows" she is "a slut for black dick", because she loves it "big and hard and BLACK" and then says the camera to come fuck her "hard and fast and deep" like she likes it with that "big black dick!" She was awesome. Just so nasty. She really got into it. I can't wait to get to do that again longer and with more preparation---and then post it online! Afterwards I filmed her as she came from her vibrator and begged that I fuck her. We ended up with a long good fucking in all positions. Unfortunately, time constraints and software problems would conspire to limit the chance for us to do this again for many months.

"Baby Steps"

Strangely, immediately right after the above she commented on her concern about my expectations over our upcoming return visit to the swing club. I had to once again assure her that I had "no expectations" other than just going and watching and seeing where it led, but that she was under no obligation nor would be asked or pressured to do anything at all other than relax and observe with me. I honestly meant it too. It is really no secret what my long term goals and desires are, and I now believe that in time they will be met. The best way to achieve them I feel is to just go to these places and relax as the scene and events will unfold. In time, at some point I expect that Linda on her own will make a decision to do more than just watch. (….I can wait for that. Hehehehe) So, we agreed to allow her to take "baby steps" one at a time at her own pace. I thought it was a wonderful and productive idea…and one that did not prevent me from maneuvering to help those steps get taking…hehehehe.

The Club Trip II

We at last made a second trip to the out of town swing club. Prior to going we had a spat. We argued about expectations and pressure again having to do with her nervousness at my disappointment and un-concealable frustration expressed over how uneventful things had gone the last time. We settled the matter by agreeing to communicate better at all times over the subject and especially while at the club.

We both were leather outfits and sexy boots and this timed picked up some drinks to bring along. We were in a much better mood this time around and far more relaxed. We went right in and went to the bar and sat and joked and talked and looked at people. Again, it seemed like everyone knew everyone else but us and we were not approached-though we are hardly the "unapproachable types" by any reason. I told Linda that what would make my evening is if she managed to do one thing for me tonight, and that was go out on the dance floor for awhile with either another woman or a black guy. She smiled and said "Ok. We'll see." Then she added, "Baby steps, remember?" and I laughed nodding.

Linda seemed relaxed and comfortable to me this time and told me she was fine when I asked repeatedly. After awhile an attractive but buxom black girl was at the bar next to me trying to get service. She made small talk and we started talking. Her husband was there nearby and I sprung to introduce ourselves. I ended up chatting with the wife making small talk about the club, it was their first visit and like us were just trying to have a rare sexy evening out. She joked with me some and actually told me about how they were just coming to check things out but the last time they visited such a club all the women were very gross and all the men kept trying get her to have sex so that they were not uncomfortable at all with it. Linda and the wife exchanged a few words too. But the husband made no effort to talk to either of us really. He was a decent fellow and we actually had many things in common. But I ended up blurting out like an inexperienced goofball how I was hoping to see my wife with a black guy tonight (slim chance of that as it was, I knew). It was stupid and premature for a number of reasons and only showed how anxious and clumsy I was at all this. I asked Linda if she wouldn't mind sitting and talking with them and she said, "Okay, that's fine." So, I asked if they wanted to go find a seat and chat (it was very crowded and noisy at this point) but they said they just wanted to look around some. They eventually went their own way. I'm sure I could have handled that much better, but then I guess they were not looking for people like us, or perhaps he was not interested in Linda (or maybe knew his wife wasn't ready for him to be interested).

We went up stairs after they left and looked around then sat for awhile in the main room. People came and went for awhile until eventually an overweight short black woman came in with her skinny thuggish looking boyfriend (it's was weird how some people come to these clubs wearing just their ordinary raggy street clothes). I chatted with her briefly then when we grew bored we walked around some more. We came upon the very small bondage room (more like a bondage closet) inconveniently placed off of a main hallway, and to our surprise a woman was tied to the sawhorse being spanked by an older man. Her ass was nice and her pussy shaved and exposed. She whimpered as he slapped her intermittently with a crop. Linda to my surprise nonchalantly sat right down across from them in the chairs and began to watch not five feet away! She said, let's stay awhile. Cleary she was intrigued. And thus, so was I. The man smiled our way, acknowledging our presence, and continued. After a few moments I commented on how nice the woman's ass was and Linda agreed. I reached over and unbuttoned Linda's top, completely exposing her tits in the bright light of the hallway. I then spread her legs and reach under her leather skirt where she her thin thongs were easier pushed aside. I exposed her soft white thighs and pussy and started to massage it. She was only a little wet. The man was watching us off and on now, clearly seeing my wife's tits and her pink bush. Sadly, a minute later a bunch of half drunken nitwits came giggling down the hall and stopped to stand right in front of us obnoxiously commenting on the scene and inconsiderately robbing everything of the slightest bit of eroticism. We folded up and left the area. (Later though, when I asked if the scene had made her hot, Linda said "Very." I would have liked to have stayed and seen what would have happened had we not been disturbed. I would have liked to have seen more of that woman there and I am sure I would have gotten Linda off right in front of that man…and who knows, maybe tied to the same spot and spanked herself before being fucked…then who knows what. It definitely intrigued me how the public bondage action appealed to her.)

Linda commented how annoying those people were and it seemed they were everywhere. Probably regulars. Anyway, as we left the area Linda's shirt was still completely open and everyone was looking at her nice tits as we went by and down the hall way. She enjoyed it, but modestly closed her shirt by time we got to the theater room. We made our way into the dark theater and took some seats on the comfortable black vinyl couches. We sat on the aisle end in the second row from the back. I wanted to sit there so that we could be send from both the rear and front. I tried to get Linda to sit farther along in the row, because another couple was down there, but she purposely sat on the very end.

Within 15 minutes we realized at the end of our row against the wall a chubby black guy in the dimness was getting sucked by his chubby tanned blonde girlfriend. I kept trying to get Linda to look and she would only steal a quick glance. She later told me she was still "embarrassed" at it all. Eventually I started to finger her and play with her tits. The two next too us finally started undressing and humping, with the woman getting louder. From behind us too now we could hear sex sounds and a woman moaning. At this point I finally spun around and knelt down in front of my wife and forcing her legs open, I started to energetically lick her now very wet pussy. For the first few second she was caught off guard and almost tried to stop me with her hands and thighs but I persisted. There were now loud sounds of sex coming from all around us in the small dark theater. I looked up as Linda started to climax! I poured it on and she attempted poorly to stifle her orgasm scream. She had come right there in the darkness with all those people around (later she told me she "couldn't believe I had done that"). I got up and turned Linda around so she lay down on the couch then pulled my pants open and mounted her for awhile. Then as I heard more and more sounds I wanted to see what was happening in the room, and more importantly, I wanted to Linda to see and be seen.

So I pulled Linda up and turned her around so she was on her knees facing the back of the row of the couch. I stood behind her and pumped her creamy pale ass right there. She kept her head buried in the cushions of the back of the sofa. The next thing I know a hot blonde has her head and arms over the seat next to me while a man was fucking her from behind. She was only a seat away to my right. The woman was mature and very pretty and deep into being fucked. I then started to pump Linda very fast as my eyes adjusted to the darkness and contrasts of the dim lighting. There were a half dozen people in the front rows but you couldn't tell what was happening up there. I could also make out a few people standing in the doorway and behind the large window. That's when I then saw that the black couple we had met earlier was now directly behind us! They were virtually hidden in the shadows. For two who were not interested they were both definitely watching us it seemed. The woman was on the edge of her seat slurping away at her husband who was standing right there, about a foot away from Linda's head, his dark dick slipping in and out between the woman's lips. I pulled Linda by her short hair, lifting her up so she was more visible and unable to ignore what was going on so close to her. After having waited the whole week for sex and seen so much all night, it didn't take long. I came about a minute later, or so it seemed. But the room was so dark and with the wine we drank everything had such a blurry surreal quality that Linda told me later she hadn't really even noticed anyone behind her or next to her! Oh well. It was strange to realize what we had accomplished: we had had sex in public in front of a group of strangers doing the same!

By time we gathered ourselves together and slipped out of the theater room it was all quiet again except for the couple at the end of our row who were still slowly humping in the darkness. On the way out I had to go and get our coats. When I did I passed in one hallway a group of two young blonde girls sitting with three young black guys all together on a sofa drinking and laughing. I thought to myself, whoa!, an interracial sex party waiting to happen tonight, damn, but our timing was off. Oh well, maybe next time.

Later that night (or rather early the next morning) we both expressed how weird and surprising but how sexy it all was. I asked Linda if she would do that again and she embarrassingly said, "Maybe."" She joked to me, "So much for 'baby steps" hunh?" referring to our agreement to let her take just small steps at a time, incremental progress to make her comfortable with anything she decides to do in the future. We agreed that next time we went we would try to arrive earlier, stay longer, and not just run out right after having sex, that way we'd experience more of the place.

In the week following, the next time we had sex we never even mentioned the affair. But the next time, while laying together in the early morning twilight, we started whispering about it and we both got really hot. Linda told e she was still thinking about it and I told her how I wanted to see her tied to that bench and whipped by that man in the bondage room…after I fucked that woman there right in front of her. I fingered Linda to climax asking her about it and she admitted she had indeed seen the couple behind her, had seen his dark cock and was excited by a black man's dick so close she could have sucked it herself. I also told her how I was imagining that she was doing that very thing when I fucked her at the time. She quickly came as I expertly played her clit. When I fucked her right afterward I relived the whole event.

The Slow Down

As if in anti-climax to that highlight. The next few months were frustrating and uneventful. Between work strain and interruptions to our weekends, and Linda's general mood, we either had nothing or just soft sex time. But, at one point when we had a quickie, I recall an incident worth remembering: I threw her against the bed, pushed a pillow on her head so I couldn't see or hear her, and just reamed her good and hard, fantasizing deliberately the whole time that I was whoring her out and she was being black fucked by a line of men waiting to use her holes. God but it made me hard and cum good. After I spent myself I pulled out, zipped up and just "left her there" as if she had been humiliatingly "used." It was very erotic and nasty and Linda obviously liked it.

Her Relaxing Afternoon

In order to help encourage my wife sexually and make her refocus herself on being a sexy, erotic woman, I came up with an ideal. I told her she was getting a private afternoon of "relaxation alone." For three or four hours on Saturday I would take the family away and leave her to do nothing at all, no chores, no interruptions, no tasks. I cleaned the bedroom, made the bed, started a bath for her and poured a glass of wine. Then I left her something under a pillow on the bed: all her dildos and vibrators and a VHS tape and a DVD---one all girl on girl an done all black men with white women. The boxes were empty and the videos already in the machines with the remotes on the bed. I also left her my letter that I had written while away, the one I had told her about but that she hadn't read yet, the one where I awoke from a powerful sex dream of her in the swing club theater, her hands rubbing on the crotch of a black stranger as he massaged her bare thighs and tits as I watched. While I would be gone she would have nothing to do but enjoy herself.

The whole time I was out I thought nearly constantly about what she might be doing and how she might be doing it. It was extremely arousing. To think of her reading my letter, using her toys, watching the videos alone and getting herself off, was exciting. I knew was soon as I came home she would want it bad. When I finally came back she was clearly very happy and relaxed, and a little giddy. It wasn't for a few hours that we were able to be alone and she was definitely very horny. It had worked.

She told me she started out drinking her wine in the tub, reading my letter, being careful not to get it wet. Then as she red it she got excited and played with her black rubber dildo, stroking it off water soapy hands as it was attached to the side of the tub by its suction cup. She thought about the dream I had as she did it and told me she got really wet. She tried to mount it but the suction cup broke off! So, she then went to the bed and explored through the videos, but found the interracial one too also wand ended up with the lesbian one. There two girls humping (her favorite) got her really hot and she rolled up her tow, around the dildo and sat, humping her pussy against it as she watched the girls do the same. She rewound the scene and watched it again as she came, very loudly she told me. From this description we ended up having really hot sex. I was also really glad she liked my letter so much.

Getting Ass Again

After I returned from a week long business trip I was feeling a heavy load of cum just waiting to burst and decided I wanted to spend it no where else than my wife's mouth. But, with jet lag and a cold, I postponed it. Then, at 2 am in the morning her hot little ass was up against me and the next thing I knew I was feeling her up all over. She spread her legs and after ten minutes or so of playing with her pussy, by fingering, clit flicking, rubbing and massaging, pulling, and smacking, all trying to wake it up fully, I went down on her. I ate her out like I never had before, really getting my whole face into her, making her totally soaked and licking and nibbling and tonguing every inch of her cunt. I took my time and care until she started to arch her back and spread her legs, knees bent, pushing herself against my face then coming long and hard.

I laid there with my face buried in her for several more minutes, hoping perhaps to give her a rare second round, which seldom occurs because her pussy gets very sensitive after cumming and all she usually wants is immediate intercourse. But, I kept her relaxed and continue to tease some. Finally, I climb back up and was prepared to roll over and fall asleep, but her cute little ass was there again. I rubbed and squeezed it and noted how extraordinarily wet she still was. I used the moisture to play with her ass hole some then leaned over and told her that I had a heavy load for her and that I would only be satisfied by spending it in one of two ways, either in her mouth or in her ass! I asked if she understood and she mumbled yes, then I asked Linda if she had a preference and she mumbled no. So…I knew what I wanted more. Thus, without ceremony or hesitation I lubed myself up and started to finger her ass. Lying on her side she moaned in some discomfort and I could feel her tightening, I kept having to tell her to relax. After a minute or so I climbed on and pushed my cock insider her, she moaned again in discomfort but I was not deterred and with how hard I was and how well lubed I slipped right up her tight hot rear! It was so good. I started to work it slow and she again was moaning and grunting with some discomfort and I heard her say make it fast. But I knew I had no intention of that. I started to work it and told her repeatedly to relax, and soon my wife started to relax. I pulled it out slowly and then quickly pushed it back in again with ease, causing her ass to be even more relaxed and wet for me.

Then I started to ram her good, fast and hard and deep. I was really plowing her ass good and it was so sweet. I told her to rub her pussy and she did. And then I asked if it was good, and she moaned softly. I kept asking then started to say, "You like it don't you, now?" And she moaned "Yes." I kept saying it and then told her to tell me she liked it. Linda then moaned softly, "I…I like it, I like it in my ass…." I repeated my order and again she said, "Fuck my ass, please." Which were words I had been wanting to hear for some time. I believed her too, or at least wanted too, but from her sounds I really think she was enjoying it. I felt my cock grow very hard and I used it to pump deeper and faster. I said to her, "You like that, you like that big hard dick in your ass, you like giving your ass up to your husband." I added, "You're an ass fucking wife now." And she moaned yes, just as I came hard and long, moaning the whole time, "Oooh…it's so sweet soooo sweet, yes, yes!" I did come hard. Her ass was so tight. It was only the second time we had done this.

The next day, I was wondering of course how things went for her. To my delight that afternoon out of the blue Linda says to me, "Last night was good, honey" (!). I gleamed and asked, "Really! You liked that?" She replied, "MmmHmmm…especially the first part", meaning the oral. I responded that was great and that I was very glad because it was very satisfying. So, there ended my doubts that my wife was just giving in to me out of obedience or that she would tolerate anal even though it was not something she enjoyed. I felt very good. Despite her reluctance and initial hesitance I had converted her to enjoy a good hard fuck in her sweet ass. I then wondered how often we would begin to have anal now. Next time perhaps I imagined I would have her on all fours with her vibrator on her clit, which should really encourage her. I also wondered what else she would come to enjoy…

Planning within plans

While I was away I had the chance as usual to do some thinking and planning. I hit on the amusing idea of taking some of the best of the many faked photos I had done of my wife with black men, and importing them into MS PowerPoint software where I could turn them into slides and add large word balloons, like dialogue or thought balloons in comic books. Then I would add text boxes and have Linda sit down and type in statements on her own. In other words, she could be creative and imagine herself in the picture and write what she would be thinking or feeling, or saying aloud as the scene actually happened. I also imagined I might put in some word balloons for the men and let her write in what they were saying. This way we would get turned on and I might have some insight into her thought process and fantasies. I figure there is a lot of potential titillation to explore with this. Perhaps even something to show on Dark Cavern…

Due to our lifestyle and work schedule in '04, we had very little to no time at all to indulge ourselves in any sexual adventures or erotic fun and it has been frustrating for me. So much time and so many chances have been lost. Despite what events I chronicle here, we had yet to really use our digital video, or our webcam, or play online in chat or watch many videos. What's worse, my wife's interest level or at least capacity had been severely hindered by life stress the past six months-though one might not get that impression from reading this journal. But, a recent change may provide us with an outlet that will actually give us an opportunity twice a week in the daytime that we have never had before. With this opportunity I am already beginning to wonder now about placing a real Dark Cavern ad finally! Not only that, but I could reactivate ads we had placed in the past on a couples site, a BDSM site, and a bi-sexual wives site. The possibility is exciting. I think the time has come for me to tell her that I will proceed in this and that when a prospect to her liking arises, she can then decide if its worth pursuing. I will arrange all details on such an occasion, thereby relieving her of any concern or stress of decision making. It would be an either yay or nay scenario. Further, I imagined that there will be opportunity now to slip out in the daytime to some video arcades or adult theaters as we had in the past from time to time. But now, I imagine most any erotic adventure could conceivably happen-such as at a glory hole or a stranger being involved. The possibilities now could be substantial. So, we will see…

Linda "in Charge"

Finally one afternoon, we were at last alone without any commitments and we made the most of it…..Linda alone was on the bed in lingerie, wearing a sexy wig, watching girl on girl porn, and masturbating….I was outside the door on my knees, watching her through the crack. It was all her idea. I started to get hard and stroke. She soon got up and came and opened the door. Pretending, she said, "Oh! Are you the TV handyman I called?" I muttered a yes and she "ordered" me inside and said to start "making myself handy." She made me lick her pussy for awhile then made me lick her tits. Then she made herself cum with her vibrator. It was very exciting, she was quite commanding and really got into it. I was rock hard the whole time. Then the most exciting surprise came. She got on all fours on the bed and said, "What are you waiting for? Fuck me!" I moved up behind her and was about to happily enter her warm pussy when she pulled away and said to my shock, "Not that hole! The other one!" I was thrilled. She was asking-no ordering-me to fuck her in the ass! At last she was actually asking for it first. I lubed up and fucked her wildly, long and hard, and she squealed and moaned, and told me how good it was and how much she liked it, she was more enthusiastic than any previous time. I shot my cum inside her and kept pumping. She really impressed and surprised me and it was some of the best sex we've ever had I think., and I told her so after. Linda said she had a lot of fun. I hope we get to repeat this game sometime soon again.

Mission Impossible

Finally I convinced my wife to take a chance and attempt a long desired erotic adventure of both of us visiting an "adult spa"…essentially one of those jack off studios where a stripper dances for you while you masturbate, or if she's willing and you can afford her, you might get a hand job, titty-job, or so I am told, even oral or intercourse with a condom. I wanted to go to an Asian girl one but Linda wanted to wait on that. We agreed that what would happen would be we would get naked and have sex while the woman watched, encouraged us, pretended to play with herself, and then….rubbed and touched us all over and vice versa. That last was a pretty big step for Linda. I of course hoped that it would go further once we started or provide us the groundwork to for even more participation the next time. We went to one studio on a week day at lunch time and the place was deserted because all the girls were busy with customers. No one would even answer the bell at the front counter. We drove to a second and the same thing happened. At the third one, an absolutely stunning young blonde-- whom I instantly thought "I must have her!' --briefly came out but she immediately informed us "she didn't do couples" and was so snotty about it that I could virtually feel Linda's interest drop right there and I myself was put off by the woman's attitude. We then drove to a fourth one but the ladies who came out and paraded before us were pretty skuzzy looking and much too ethnic for our tastes. I wanted so badly to have one of them be appealing, but no luck. So, that was the last straw. We had spent well over two hours attempting this, failed at four different place across town, and were tired, hungry, bored, and a turned off by the whole miserable affair. The effort was noble but the results dismal. We tried to laugh it off and did at least agree to try again sometime but to investigate more carefully before hand tin order o save us the hassles.

Slow Summer's Set Back

The summer seemed to bring a slow down for us sexually. Schedule changes, domestic and social obligations combined with a myriad of other distractions to interfere. It actually got rather depressing for me. I seemed to be waiting and hoping for week after week for continuation of our progress in hot sex. We still had not attempted any nasty Internet chat or webcam play either. There was also an opportunity during the summer where we almost got to an adult video arcade. We new we'd be passing by a large one we had never been to and I suggested we go take a look, but she was reluctant and hesitant and I instantly grew really testy and impatient given how deficient our sex life had been all summer, and how little intimacy we had shared. We ended up arguing about it in the car with me expressing my disappointment and lack of fulfillment, and Linda expressing her feelings of being pressured into expectations she might nit be willing to fill.

Eventually we had a talk. I pressed concerns to Linda and we had a long discussion. She concurred about the slowdown. We discussed the reasons and problems, and tried to think of ways to deal with them. To my surprise, Linda expressed a few doubts, hesitations, and apprehensions about when and if she would ever go through with any off the fantasies and hot talk we were having. The talk gave us some clarification on how sometimes she talks during sex because its hot and nasty at the time, but afterward, it was just that, and yet, because I told her never say anything you don't mean, she is afraid to say anything now because I might try to hold her to it. But I assured her I want her to be able to say anything and express anything during sex no matter how kinky or nasty, so I told her it was okay to have talk that was just "pure fantasy" and then hot talk that was "possible fantasy." For instance, if I say I want to have sex with a certain celebrity, that's pure fantasy, or if she wanted to talk about an all-girl masked orgy in a mysterious castle during a rain storm, that would be pure fantasy too. So, while there may be some issues remaining, we at least had a discussion where she was able to express some concerns and get some reassurances and I did not have discover I was having any illusions.

About two months of summer had gone by with no interracial fantasy talk during sex, and just some occasional she loves "big cock" or "use me" hot talk. Our sex, what little we had, was good and hot, but it was "plain vanilla." In fact, I had to request some nasty talk from her on more than one occasion as she seemed to forget I liked it. During one time though, in foreplay I playfully asked if she liked porn and asked her what favorite kind of porn was, Linda answered, girl on girl…and girls with black guys. So that was some comfort, at least.

During this period I managed to collect some great interracial porn in the mean time and arrange it for Linda's eventual viewing. I also had the fantastically titillating idea of taking a series of pictures with her holding up a blank piece of white paper, and then coming in and fucking her while the camera was set on the timer. Then I would go into my photo software and add text to the piece of paper in each photo, the text would tell a "story" of what Linda was "thinking" and "imaging" and "wishing" for as she looked at the camera seductively. It would be a great "signs of the times" photo shoot for Dark Cavern! I got off several times masturbating to the idea. I was also depressed that I had no time at all lately to create any more fake pics and Linda had not even asked about them in months. I had collected dozens of superb source pics and had taken dozens of excellent shots of her specifically for using in faked pics, but there was just no time in the month and I had so little energy to be able to work on any. Once I get the opportunity again I will be able to make the best ones I have ever done.

My Submissive Slut

By the end of the summer we still had had little time together, and occasions for any kinky sex had been very few. Finally though, an opportunity came and we agreed to have some BDSM fun. I set things up in advance for a change to make it run smoother. It turned out to be the best ever for us in my opinion.

I came out to the front room dressed in some fetish gear, got Linda and blind folded her, took her back to the room, tied her down on the bed spread. Then started to whip some on her tits and thighs lightly with a small multi-flanged leather hand-whip while cursing her with all the usual filthy epithets. She whimpered and murmured and cried and it made me hard. I then attempted a long desired shaving of her pussy hair, but she panicked and used our safe word to avoid it, then requested I didn't do it this time. Having long wanted to have her cunt bare and nude, I was annoyed but acquiesced nonetheless. I then fingered her for awhile to recover the mood and then licked on her some, and used the dildo, but somehow she just didn't seem to be responding much. I rubbed my cock all over her face and made her lick and suck on my shaft and balls for awhile. She seemed to relax more so I then untied her and replaced her bent over the bed, tied up again with legs spread and arms behind her back. I used a small internal vibrator on her for awhile as I smacked and slapped her ass and thighs, calling her filthy names and chastising he the whole time. She moaned and cried. I then placed her hands between her legs and gave Linda her vibrator, ordering her to use it. Then without any previous intention, I decided to fuck her up the ass for spite at my being stifled in shaving her. I lubed up and pushed right into her ass! It was a good long ass fuck. I pumped her and continued using the small whip on her ass, as much as I could given how close I was pumping her. I kept telling her she was my dirty ass fucking bitch and to moan like the whore she was. After a few minutes of me inside her ass and the vibrator against her clit she started to cry out long and loud and I knew she was cumming! This was the first time cumming while being fucked in the ass. I asked her if she had just climaxed and she cried, yes. She was covered in tears and still shaking. She started to collapse and couldn't stand up bent over the bed any longer but I wasn't finished with her so I untied her and put her on her back with her legs raised. I entered her anally from the front which was another first for us. I rammed her as hard as I could then pulled out and quickly straddled her and stroked myself for a few seconds until I came. I shot a gob all the way up to her face! Later I asked how Linda liked it and she smiled saying it was "really good." So I asked if she meant the whole scene in general or the cumming during the anal and she said, "both."

Then very next day we had the chance to indulge in another erotic plan…once again I left Linda alone in the house for about 3 and a half hours of "private time", but before drove away I had put her black dildo and her vibrators out on the bed along with several interracial and lesbian porno vids. While I was gone, she had a glass of wine, a leisurely bath and then got herself off while using the dildo and watching a lez vids! I was excited the whole time I was out thinking of her back there alone, playing with herself, watching porno, making herself cum. I was totally horny for hours. When I came home Linda was wearing lingerie and smiling and led me to the bed where I simply fucked her quickly and quietly. Then the day we had another quickie. She was bend over the bed as I was humping her and I finally asked her what she did yesterday. In a sultry voice my wife whispers to me all the sexy details. She then adds that it was great and that she should use her dildo on herself while I do her ass so that she can have "the best of both"! She really likes rubbing the head of the black rubber dick against her clit she tells me. Then she told me again how she really liked the BDSM the prior day and loved the ass fuck. So as I was standing there fucking her from behind, to get me off I made her say how she wanted a big black cock up her ass. I came within twenty seconds.

Anal, Anal, and Anal

I came back from a 8 day trip where I hadn't stroked off the whole time. Plus we hadn't had sex for like three days before I left. So I was really wound up and knew I had a heavy load to blow. I got back late and went right to bed. But a few hours later, I woke up with a raging hard on and started to play with Linda's ass. She just lay there on her side submissively as usual allowing me to have my way. She was quickly very wet and I rubbed myself all over her wet hole. I maneuvered myself to mount her, she was still lying sideways, and I moved her leg so I could get myself in, I still had her sexy ass cheek in one hand and she was soaking wet all over. So I suddenly wanted to fuck that tight ass again…this would be the first time we had anal sex twice in a row with no pussy fucked and it somehow got me excited. So I quickly grabbed some lube and then lifted her leg and pushed myself right in with little effort, I was so hard and she was so wet. I came in like minute it seemed and I loved the way I had just suddenly taken her ass, and for only the third time. I climbed off collapsed and fell asleep right next to her. In the morning she told me that last night was "really nice." A week later, we were alone for the afternoon and fucking for awhile when I told her I wanted her ass, and again, we went at it delightfully for our fourth time of anal sex. About two weeks later we had the rare time to be alone at a hotel for a change and I went down on her before ewe went out to dinner. After she came, I flipped her over and without telling her or asking, I lubed right up, rubbed my dick head against her ass for while, then slowly pushed it inside as she laid there squealing and moaning. Without nay words I fucked her there for about five minutes before allowing my self to spew in her hole. Afterward I never even mentioned it. She liked being taken that way I am sure. No inquiry as to her mood or interest at the moment, just a hard cock shoved in her ass….Mmmmm.

An Arousing Fantasy

I found this snippet on the DC site where a man wrote about a certain fantasy he and his wife had. It was a new angle and thought to me but I discovered I found it particularly arousing and decided to just include here as is unedited for my wife's benefit. I'm curious how she will respond to it:

My wife likes being the "horrified" white woman, forced to submit to the sex crazed blackman, while her "helpless" husband, "forced" to witness her debasement, becomes so aroused watching the blackmen fuck her, he starts masturbating and urging them to fuck his wife's pussy good. Personally, I love being "forced" to watch as my sexy wife gets fucked repeatedly and finally surrenders to her attacker's advances, gradually becoming aroused by all the touching and feeling as well as the size and persistence of her attackers large, black and immensely thrilling penetrations. I love how she "endures" the abuse at first, and then, as time goes by, she becomes more involved and starts to contribute to the festivities. She "reluctantly" becomes a willing and eager participant in her own degradation, and even encourages her "assailants" to use her over and over again. For me. there's nothing so arousing as being "forced" to watch as strange blackmen with large cocks fuck my wife's pussy, mouth and ass in cheap motels, backseats, or behind some bushes in the park. And since my sexy white wife has no choice but to give the blackmen what they want, she understandably tries her best to please them so. And if she happens to please herself (and me) at the same time, well that's not her fault, is it? I mean, it isn't like we could do anything about it! Of course, as the helpless" husband forced to watch, after awhile, I too start getting very aroused by what I see. I can't resist touching myself as I watch my sexy white wife taking pleasure in being mauled and abused by the big-dicked blackman between her legs. I watch her grow more and more cooperative, more and more willing, until she is openly enjoying what's happening to her...she starts urging him on, wanting him to fuck her white pussy, wanting him to cum, wanting him to fuck her harder and to make her cum!!! That's when I "reluctantly" masturbate myself to a tremendous orgasm as he buries his large black cock inside her deeper and harder until they are both cumming like crazy too! Then, hot for more, we wait to see what he's going to do to her next. I am especially turned on by the way my sexy wife surrenders to her violators in the end...how she becomes as eager to be degraded and used by them as they are to do it. She surrenders so completely, she even joins them in humiliating me - the helpless watching husband who got her into this in the first place. And she enjoys it too! She likes telling me how big HIS black cock is and how much better HE is in bed than I am. She repeatedly ridicules me for getting a hard on and puts me down for getting excited as the strange men are fucking her and making her suck their big dark cocks. Then when she starts liking it and wanting it, she tells me to go jack off while she proceeds to supply them with all the married white pussy they want. After she gets fucked the first time, my wife never offers any further resistance. She becomes a willing and wanton slut, eager to please her ebony abusers and anxious to gratify their every wish. She often initiates further ravagement by talking about "niggers" and white pussy and how hot it makes her when they are fucking her. She tells them how much she likes having them inside her. She gets so cooperative. But she doesn't stop giving them what they want either. She gives 'em what they want anyway they want it! And, if she is some kinda black cock whore, she's my black cock whore and I wouldn't have it any other way! I love it most when she having orgasms... when she's getting pleasure from the thick black cocks buried between her legs and deep in her throat. When she's HIS...when all she wants is HIS big, hard, cock deep inside her, making her cum again and again. I get off when she is welcoming HIS advances, wanting HIM between her legs...enjoying how HE feels inside her, wanting HIM there. And, in the middle of all that upheaval, she still manages to do it all for me, for my pleasure as well as her own.

Late Fall 2004 - Few Opportunities & Bad timing

About two months have gone by now, and our sex life has been slow because we have been so busy with life in general. We had some good and erotic sex the other night at long last, and for a change I teased Linda while fucking her. I teased her a lot, sliding it almost all the way out and for a long time not pushing it in as deep as I can like she loves, nor ramming her hard and fast. I was experimenting, trying to make her beg for it or plead for more, or just act slutty, perhaps demand and order it hard and fast...whatever…just make her talk to me, maybe even try to make me fuck her by suggesting she would have to go get it elsewhere or find a black lover to give her what she really needs (!). I waited and waited, expectantly, without hinting, to see what hot talk I'd get from her, but she never bit. Finally, to get myself off so as to not be disappointed or frustrated…I was forced to hint until she responded, but I noticed she did not do so enthusiastically. I don't know why she seemed so dense or was so reluctant? Sometimes she just isn't in the mood to talk, I understand.

Toward the end of the year, life changes took a toll on our amorous activities once again. Our many distractions , domestic projects, business and professional obligations, travel, and family requirements started to all give us very little time for sex. When we did have opportunity, there was very little hot talk and few nasty activities. Significant, though positive, changes severely cut into our private time together and our occasions for intimacy. All we managed was "vanilla" quickies now and then and if not for the outlet of collecting Net porn I'd be a very grumpy fellow. I had compiled dozens off excellent new interracial bids to show my wife at some point. But the DC site had started to bore me with few true amateurs anymore and a seeming weekly barrage of fat women and revolting surprise pictorials of bi-men (sorry, really turns me off). It has been months since I made entries in my journal because of this.

Add to this the disappointment that another long awaited opportunity to return to the swingers club for our third visit proved unsatisfactorily unsuccessful in its timing at the last minute. Indeed, so little progress had been made that I would venture to say things had actually reversed if not just slid back. After all, it has taken slow relentless careful nudging and coaxing to get my lovely wife to the stage she's at now. Laying off or ignoring certainly has the result in my opinion of giving her occasion to reconsider or fall into old familiar patterns. But enough lamenting, things will improve I know.

Because our chances for sex had become severely limited they were beginning to stand out in my mind even more. The thing with my wife is, the longer between sex the more she wants it sot and slow and romantic, or "nice sex", whereas I'm the opposite. The longer between encounters, the more impatient and urgent and the nastier I feel. It builds up and I want to dominate and get kinky. So, we usually comprise somewhere in the middle which is not entirely physically (or emotionally) satisfying to either of us. I've come to learn that the best course of action is for me to acquiesce to going nice so that her needs are met first and I get what I want fully the next time. It make sense.

Out of a period of some 60 days I think w only managed sex about 6-7 times, but finally we had the chance alone in the dark to relax and pretty quickly we were back into familiar territory-while it has still been 6 weeks or so since Linda or I made any mention of her being a black cock slut at all. I had purposely stayed away from the subject to see how long or if she would broach it herself, either as a way of at some point stimulating me into fucking her more aggressively, or to arouse herself to greater orgasm. So far neither has occurred and I wonder if it is because of sheer unawareness on her part, or issues of timing and mood or even, dreadfully, lack of interest (!) At this point I cannot say as there is anecdotal evidence for each case.

Double Penetration Future? Eventually, during this period of intermittent and infrequent sex, we were finally going at it in bed with me on top fucking her deeply when Linda at last started to hot talk, she asked me to call her "my bitch" and I quickly obliged, then beginning to add all the usual nasty comments-with a new one thrown in. Linda started to talk about how she loved hard cock and big hard cock and loved being fucked by huge cock, how her wet pink pussy just swallowed up big dicks-and I instantly noted that she did not use the usual "I love your hard cock" or "give me your hard cock" and "I missed that big dick of yours", but instead spoke in the generic…! Now, I could have considered this inconsequential but to me it was her code phrases again. So, I fucked her faster and she squealed nicely, responding as I started talking back to her about what a bitch whore she was for dick and what a cock slut she was that loved being fucked by big dicks. To confirm my intuition she responded enthusiastically with agreeing comments. At this point, I started to call her an assfucker and a cum eater and a dick sucker-which I had been noticing were phrases getting increasingly stronger responses out of her, so I then said: "I know you love it in the ass, bitch, I bet you want a dick in your ass and your cunt, two cocks pounding you at once, don't you?" Linda replied "Yes!" And I began to fuck her as hard as I could while continuing, "You want to get double penetrated, baby? Hmmm? Is that what you want" "Yeahhhh…" she moaned. "You want a hard dick up each hole at the same time, pumping you hard, using your holes?" "Oh, yes, yes…" She moaned. And it went on like this until I came and we collapsed. I thought it was good progress because she never previously touched on that activity or expressed specific interest in it, and her enthusiasm for my words made me consider it was not just idle hot talk of the moment. I decided I would pursue that line again in the future and pay attention to see if she raised it.

A College Lesbian Wannabe

The next time we had sex we finally managed to get out some porn and her favorite vibrator toy. We were watching a special lezz tape that I had gotten for her with lots of her favorite pussy to pussy grinding and pumping. Linda had to have been really horny for a good fuck because after only a minute or so she got off her chair, dropped her panties and bent herself over our ottoman footstool in front of the TV. I moved up behind her as she positioned her vibrator between her legs. I pressed my cock up against her asshole and gently pushed softly rocking back and forth. This went on for a minute or so as she enjoyed herself, and I began to happily assume she wanted it in the ass tonight. But to my surprise she said, "not that hole, not good time tonight." After a little ass rubbing and thigh massaging, playing with her, I slowly entered her moist pussy. A few minutes of good fucking and pumping was followed by a surprisingly development.

A young girl was on screen that in my mind bore a clear resemblance to my wife from photos of her college days. The girl was skinny, small-chested, with shoulder-length curly brownish hair and very pale skin. She was supposedly in a college dorm and her coed friend came by to study but they immediately ended up licking pussy. Now, in the past I have occasionally run across old 70's interracial mages of women that looked like my wife in college and it really turned me on-I fantasized that she had a double life where she actually did suck and fuck black dick in her youth-an impossibility, I know, since she was virgin when I met her and can't really suck a dick. But the images were thrilling nonetheless, and I sometimes imagined maybe she had done everything except fuck… So when the girl came on the screen after little while I made the comment to Linda that, "She kind of looks like a younger you when you were in college, honey." Linda immediately said, "She sure does, I was just thinking that." My heart jumped at this and my dick got harder inside her, so I added, "Is that what you wanted in college, sweety"? Linda started to moan at this from the vibrator and my pumping her cunt. She moaned, "Yessss….oh yes…." And I responded, " You wanted to lick pussy in college didn't you, Linda" Again she moaned, and rapidly said, "Yes, yes, yes." That got me really excited.

I fucked her faster as we both watched and I imagined that was what it might have looked like if it had really have been my wife there on screen. "You wished you had eaten pussy all through college, didn't you, you slut, you little cunt loving whore…" She responded, "Yes baby, I do, " I quickly went on, "I bet you wish you had done that, hunh, lick that little cutie's wet pink hole?" I asked. "Yes, yes, baby, I do" she cried. I added, "You were just too shy but that's what you wanted, isn't it? you know that now, hunh?" She moaned louder as the vibrator and my cock thrusts did their work. I told her, "Show me, baby, show me what a nasty lesbian you wanted to be, lick that pussy!" I ordered. Linda began darting her tongue out all around, in between her moans and cries lapping at some invisible pussy in front of her face! "That's it, lick it, taste it, eat those juices you pussy loving bitch!" I shouted excitedly.

What else I said during this point is a blur, because I was losing myself in the pleasure of the moment, but it had something to do with "making up for it now" or" getting your chance soon", and "confessing" she was a secret college lesbian and she just continued on moaning and moaning loudly. As the girl on screen was getting her ass and pussy licked standing up, I finally asked Linda loudly straight out, "Did you want to be lesbian in college???" " Ohhhh…yes, yes!" she cried and then at this point came and I fucked her really hard just as she did so that we came together, a rare happening for us. It was really good. After I pulled out, the scene was over and I said she sure did looked like you in your old photos, and Linda replied, "Didn't she though?" Again, I made a mental note to explore this college lesbian desire in the future, for I had always suspected it as something very likely and probable, but getting Linda to confess it, to admit and acknowledge it was good. It was a pleasant breakthrough, I felt. I suspected it would provide us with ample material for arousal soon.

Getting Some Quick Ass

That same week, we managed something of a repeat of the preceding occasion. We had the same porn tape in and after a few minutes off a different scene, I ordered Linda to and strip play with herself. She obliged obediently and soon had her vibrator between her legs. Then she came over and sat on my lap and kept it going while we watched and I played with her tits. I told her to make herself cum but soon she was asking me to play with her pussy instead. After awhile I told her if she didn't cum I would be annoyed with her, and surprisingly, she playfully said, "I guess you'll just have to spank me then…" That got a rise out of me and the next thing I know she was again bending herself over the ottoman in front of the TV. I started smacking her ass cheeks and then gave her a few good hard slaps before a dozen blows had nicely reddened her behind. She had continued to use the vibrator but I noticed now she was just on all fours waiting and my hard cock had been pressing against her ass…I told her she had a hot nasty ass and that as punishment for not cumming as ordered I was going to take it! Without comment I lubed up and began to enter her ass...she just moaned and waited…it is always a pleasant feeling now to know when she is acquiescing to a good ass fucking. I was pretty hard and got ride into it, but I could feel her ass was looser than it had been earlier the first 5 or 6 times, I guess she is getting use to it. But I recalled that in all the earlier times she somehow seemed to enjoy it much more than this or the last. Anyway, I rammed her good, trying to get myself deep as I could and she encouraged me on to take her ass and cum up her ass and shoot my load in her ass, to fucker her ass, etc., and I told her how her ass really good and that it wasn't as tight as it had been now, hoping she might say that it was "from being fucked by other men" or something (recalling the double penetration hot talk weeks earlier), but instead she said (logically) that it was because I had made it loose from my big dick. After minutes of her moaning and my pleasurable taking of her nice rear end, she asked me to hurry saying how she just couldn't take much of this kind of thing. I came good and told her it was very nice and again she commented how it was getting difficult because she can't take it there or long. I made a mental note to see if I could help her with that somehow next time.

Finally Chatting Online

Our anniversary came and we had a few emails exchanged alluding to forthcoming amorous activity in celebration. In one I asked Linda if she would promise to finally hot chat online this coming weekend. She replied yes she would. I was both relieved and pleased. So, I soon began to wonder if it would be with women or black men? Perhaps both? Would it be instant messaging or a public chat room, would it perhaps be the two of us in video chat together? I thought about it and decided, that for this occasion, what I preferred was her in a private chat with another woman as I monitored from another computer. Of course, if she preferred to be in the company of men….then that would be equally agreeable. In fact, getting to see which she was going to be hot for was itself a turn on in anticipation.

By time late night arrived, we settled down to two separate computers on opposite sides of the room, out of direct line of site one another, which only n=increased the titillation. I watched online as Linda maneuvered around the many diverse and perverse chat areas of America Online. I gave her a quick tour of the various places where she might find some hot interesting chat in the lesbian, bi, BDSM, and interracial rooms. I was instantly excited as I saw she immediately went straight to the "black chat." I watched with anxious building excitement as she spent several minutes scanning through the various rooms. I was thrilled I would finally have my wife doing some sexy cyber fun with other men! But unfortunately, the rooms she kept choosing were all full! Over and over she tried to enter and failed. Soon she moved on to female for female rooms, bi wives and bi moms rooms, and so on with the same disappointing results. It was really crowded tonight I kept thinking with exasperation!

I was excited to think of her chatting with some other bi woman finally too, but after about 30 minutes of no luck it was getting frustrating. I was also surprised that she was not getting overwhelmed as usual with private instant messages (IM's). Usually, when she has logged on just briefly or I have gone to look at her mail she is pelted with them within a minute. But oddly not tonight of all nights when we ironically were willing and waiting for them. Finally, I managed to get into a room for white women and blacks myself, I told Linda to come try to get in at the instant I left thereby making an opening. It worked and she was inside. But, these chat rooms are mostly filled with "chatters" endlessly rambling about anything other than sex it seems and she quickly grew bored at it and at being ignored. It was slow going. So after I went looking for other similar rooms and repeated the process al lover again, finally, I at least heard the IM sound followed by several more. Now she was being approached and solicited at last.

Linda was shy and nervous I could tell. A few time she said to me, "What do I say?" and "I don't know how to begin." I told her to just relax and be herself, to be curious, and ask what their interest are…That worked of course, because all the men told her how sexy she sounded and how hot her pics were in her profile. Once she asked them what they were interested in they instantly started getting hot and nasty. I told Linda that once she had found one she wanted to chat with to invite him to go to a private chat room and tell him your husband was here and just going to watch. There were several minutes of back and forth messages with a several men and a few emailed pics sent by them. She giggled a few times and seemed focused in typing her short responses. I don't know what transpired in the message traffic because she ended up closing all the windows once we went into private chat finally with one she selected. I didn't get to see any of the pics that were sent or discover why she didn't choose some of them. The pic of the one man she did chat with was of a handsome and well-muscled young guy with a second pic showing just a thick 9-incher hanging out of his underwear. I noted how consistent my wife was in her choice.

Meanwhile while my wife was busy, unbeknownst to her I continued searching the rooms and when I found a suitable profile of a black guy looking for white pussy I sent a message telling him I was "pimping my wife out tonight" and to go look at her profile because she was up for some hot chat. Some of them said "thanks" and others were perplexed or just blew me off as some creep. Once Linda was in the private room though and I sat back to enjoy the show, I was really hard. My cock was so stiff it was sticking up straight as I sat there. A transcript of the exchange is presented below unedited:

OnlineHost: *** You are in "slut wife goes black". ***
OnlineHost: 1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem has entered the room.
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: hey
Slinkywife: so tell me what you like
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: i like slutty sexy white women like you
Slinkywife: that's slutty sexy white women who are hungry for big black dicks...like it see
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: yes i see your hungry
Slinkywife: I'm always hungry....
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: well cum here and let me feed you
Slinkywife: I am not sure I can take that big black dick....
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: grabbin your hair feeding it to you
Slinkywife: taking it all in. yum
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: oh yes suck it babe
Slinkywife: got my mouth wide open...playing with your balls
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: playin with your tits as you suck it all
Slinkywife: I oh, I like to have my tits sucked
Slinkywife: I have been craving some black dick. My pussy is dripping.
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: after you suck me ill suck your tits
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: get me hard baby
Slinkywife: mmmm. my mouth is full my lips and tongue are sliding up and down that wonderful cock
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: get on top now and ride this dick
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: face me so you can feed me those big tits of yours
Slinkywife: oh that dick has my pink little pussy so wet. It is going in and out. I am riding it baby
Slinkywife: put your mouth all over my tits. suck them while I take that big dick
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: suckin your tits as i fill that tight white pussy
Slinkywife: oh, my pussy is so wet.
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: take all this dick deep in that fuck hole
Slinkywife: flip me over and give it to me
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: oh yes baby takin you from behind
Slinkywife: drill that pussy with your big black cock.
1Hungsxyblkm4sltfem: oh yes baby slapin that ass and fillin your hungry white slutty pussy
Slinkywife: I like it hard, fast and deep. move that ass and pound that tight white pussy

Well, needless to say it was exciting while it lasted. I was excited to note how assertive she became in the chat, and curious over how much she talked about oral even though we both know she has very little real capacity for it. She was confused and disappointment though by his abrupt and rude departure. He probably got himself off and then quit, told her. It happens a lot. While it was unfortunate and not an ideal ending, my wife was really wet from the attention. She did real good in her very first hotchatting and got me very, very horny.

Linda told me to come over and I left my desk and went to the lounge chair where she was sitting with the lap top on her spread legs. She had the vibrator with her but had never turned it on yet. I told her I was getting really turned on watching her chat like that and she said she new that she could see me stroking myself. I reached down and touch her clit and she was soaking wet and her pussy was really hot, burning up with heat. I told her, "You are really wetttttt, did those men make you wet?" She replied, "Unhunh…" She was still looking around online some and showed me the pics of the guy she had just talked with. I took over the laptop from her while she turned on the vibrator and began rubbing it on her dripping clit and started to play with her own nipples. In about a minute and a half she came long and loud as I watched sitting next to her holding the laptop with my cock now throbbing. Right after she came Linda said to me "Just fuck me now." I closed the laptop and she jumped on her hands and knees resting herself on the padded footstool. We had a quick and hard fuck right there and I came to a quick orgasm. She spoke as I pumped her, saying "You liked seeing me chat with those horny guys, seeing me straddle his big dick, slide it in my pink hole? You wanted to see me ride it up and down?" I moaned and moaned telling her the whole time how wet she was and how she wanted that black meat and she moaned back "Yes", over and over. I told her to tell me to fuck her with that black dick and she screamed it out, "Yes! Fuck me, fuck my pink hole with your back dick! Fuck my white pussy!" Her pussy was so wet and so hot, I kept telling her 'You pussy is so hot, it's so hot!" Then I told her to say something I saw in a really nasty video once. Say, "Nigger fuck, me! Say it!" And she did. I told her, "Louder! Say it louder!" And again she did with a loud deep moaning wail as I continued to drill my stiff dick deep into her. That's when I came. It was very nasty and we both liked it a lot. I told afterwards her it was a lot of fun and she said it was.

A week later I asked Linda in an email (one of the few ways we can talk intimately undisturbed by anyone) if she had enjoyed it and wanted to do it again, she replied yes, but not for awhile. So, two weeks later I inquired again but to my disappointment I got the same answer. A week after that she still wasn't interested while I of course was ready to do it the very next night after the first time. So, I had to be content with knowing she really liked it and would be doing it again eventually.

An Afternoon's Excitement

After three weeks where we had virtually no sex because of travel, holidays, schedule conflicts, colds, and other interferences, we finally had a chance to get down into it and were chatting on the phone making plans. Linda had already told me she wanted a soft romantic evening of loving. Linda was on her cell phone driving home and I was waiting for her. I happened to mention how turned on I was when she was playing online. She giggled and said "I Know, I saw how hard you were and I saw you strokin' it" I figured she was going to change the subject but to my surprise she starting saying , "You liked thinking of your wife riding that black rod, sitting on top of that big black thing, letting it slide in and out of my tiny pink hole?" I started to moan and agree, telling her yeah how I love seeing my wife get nasty with black men. My dick grew hard. I was rubbing it through my pants and encouraging her. She continued saying how she was "a hot little slut that liked riding black meat" and soon I pulled my cock out and she knew I was stroking it. She was giggling and using a really sultry phone sex voice she knows I love. "I reallllly liked watching you chat like that," I told her again. "That turned you on, didn't it?" she asked. "Yeahhhhh…" I replied. "I like seeing my wife used by black guys with big dicks", I told her, then added "I want to go somewhere someday where I can introduce you as 'this is my whore wife, Linda, she likes pussy and big black dicks."" Linda laughed and said, "and big white ones too!" I told her she was such a sweet sexy whore and she agreed. But I suddenly stopped stroking myself and told her hey hurry on home or I that I was going to finish of right there by myself. I wanted her to continue and I loved how she was talking, but I also wanted to do her so much. I figured if she was like this on the phone then she would be even hotter in person. When she got home however we ended up having to wait several hours until we were alone. Linda quickly got in bed, whipped out her vibrator and began to use it right through her panties. I watched and played with her nipples and within a minute or two she came every, very long and loudly. Waiting all that time had really made her need it bad. Without speaking I fucked her from behind hard and fast, just enjoying her beneath me and she continued using the vibe while I did. Very soon she came a second time! My wife had only done that like 4 or 5 times in as many years. She of course attributed it to being really in need of an orgasm and having not had it in a long time, but still I recalled the evening's earlier phone chat and wondered if that's all it was. Later she told me that earlier for fun she really was trying to get me off over the phone.

Coaxing Her into Arousing Me

The next night she again declined another invite to chat online. She was very tired and we ended up having some relaxing sex on the couch after I first managed to persuade her to let me take a few quick sexy photos of her. Doing that must have made her more excited than I realized because she seemed pretty enthusiastic during our session. But soon I alternated between fucking her hard and fast and deep and then slowing down to tease her. Eventually, after about 40 minutes or so of this, making my wife scream and moan, I allowed myself to go soft. She tried to coax me on but I feigned being tired and told her if she wanted some hard dick she had to make it hard. Soon my wife was rubbing me with her tits and rubbing her own nipples and then performing for me a most erotic, and for her uncharacteristic, nude dance, something she never does except when dressed really sexy and drinking. But she did a great job of making me hot for her and soon we were at it again. I had her bent over an ottoman foot stool and was drilling her good for awhile. But again, I experimented with her by allowing myself to grow soft. Earlier she had said she was tired and only wanted some soft sex, but then after all that previous pounding she had the energy to dance for and now was begging for "a hard dicking" telling me to please give her that big cock she loves. I started to purposely rub my almost limp member against her wet slit, telling her, "I don't know, it's awfully soft…." She moaned and whined in disappointment while I continued to slowly rub it on her to let her feel how soft it was still while playfully commenting that I didn't know if it would be able to do her any more…

Then at last said, "Well, if that dick isn't hard enough, I guess I will have to find some other dick to get fucked by…" At this I perked up and casually said"…oh yea…Is that so?" as I continued rubbing myself against her soaking hole. We went back and forth like this until she added, "Yeah, maybe I'll just find some big….black….one to fill me…" I pretended to casually say, "Oh, is that right? Is that what you really want" as my cock grew noticeably harder and I started to push it against her wet hole. Linda continued, "Yep, that's what I can do, I 'm sure there's plenty of big chocolate rods willing to drill this sweet pink hole, they'll just slide it in….take me…do me like I like!" She was really getting nasty, softly moving her hips and I was already starting to penetrate her with my now very erect member. I grunted and fucked her while she now moaned on and on about "chocolate dicks filling her pink hole" and how "black men love taking a tight wet white slut with their hard meat" that they "really know how to fuck her hard and deep." I was very excited now and happily surprised she was getting so creative and enthusiastic. As I pumped her I added, "Yeah, they sure like fucking mature married white wives" and to my astonishment I came in less than 30 seconds after the whole thing started! I then teased her about making me too excited too soon by being so nasty! We laughed and I told her how that talk always gets me really hot and she said she knew. I however knew that at last she understood for sure the equation of how to excite me and herself by being so nasty about the right subject at the proper time. Next time I expect I won't have to get so soft first or cum so soon after.

Hoping to Attract Some Interest

I spent a few days finally getting to go through the hundreds of nude photos we had taken of Linda over the last 9 months. I categorized them and edited them and found a dozen or two that were really hot. I also made several where her face was discretely blocked out for posting on line. I went and put an ad on the DC site under the section where wives ask for just email from potential black lovers wanting to interest them in taking the plunge, as well as the area where wives who had not done anything yet want to hotchat. I put ads stating that she was interested in hotchatting with select men while I watched. It got me excited writing them and posting them and then excited again when I saw them live days later. I also put a similar ad on a hot site I had just found for "slut wives" that was focused on interracial sex. Finally, I at long last thought of putting a full ad for her on "Adult Friend Finder" (AFF) It was exciting to spend time carefully composing it and selecting five of her best photos to show her off. But this ad I listed her only as potentially seeking another bi woman, and then saying that she also might be interested in a couple with a bi wife, so long as the husband only watched. In her profile there I additionally wrote of her being interested for now only in hotchatting with black men. The reason I made her profile looking for women was because I am confidant in feeling that she would more likely do something along those lines before anything else right now. I could be wrong of course. If I can get her to another swing club, who knows. She might be persuaded to take a few baby steps with another man….such as [and I get excited just writing this] letting him feel her up and suck her tits while she rubs his bare cock. That would be quite an accomplishment and surely lead inevitably to everything else in time. Of course, it might be that she would be more comfortable just "soft swinging" with another couple, where we just have sex in front of them as they do the same and no body swaps or touches any one else. For a long time I have felt that was a very likely stepping stone, and to a degree one we already achieved at the swing club we visited.

Anyway, I am curious to see what kind of response we will get from her ads. The ones for hotchat will generate some more contacts when she is playing on line I expect. The AFF one I want to see who replies and what they think of her pics. Eventually I will reveal to Linda the AFF ad and see her response. I expect her to be somewhat alarmed and nervous, then cautious, then curious and skeptical, finally titillated. Actually reading personal emails from real women telling her they want to actually have sex with her has to do something to peak her desire. Maybe she will be inspired to reply if she sees one she likes, and I am sure she will take the time to explore and search the profiles, which is in itself progress.

But in the end, it all comes down to the single most problematic area plaguing of this entire effort-getting adequate babysitting so we can then have substantial time for intimate adventures!!! That's the main issue preventing and slowing down any real progress, I am convinced. You can't get anywhere if you never have the freaking opportunity! Sigh. It's depressing.

Anyway, I had been logging on a few times to Linda's AOL account to see how many emails she had been getting, as she only logs on the account once every month or two with me and has only hotchatted that one time so far since we set up her profile earlier in the year. When I do log on briefly I get a lot of instant messages from men wanting to chat to her. I have to either ignore them or tell them briefly that she will be on sometime on the weekend and to look her up for some really nasty chat. I think it's a god way to generate greater potential for her so she has a better time. But the one thing I won't do is pretend I am her or chat in her place, I hated when husbands did that to me when I use to hot chat. It's very deceiving and disillusioning and makes you instantly dubious of whether you really are talking to the wife and not just some wannabe husband indulging his fantasies about her. I don't need that. Anyway, I figure the next time she is on AOL to hot chat we should have a better time of it since she has more experience and won't be as shy and we should be getting a lot more response. I can't wait to watch her go at it again and read what she types as he types it, see what kind of men attract her attentions, see how she interacts with the guys and how she reacts and responds to their words and prompts. I wonder what insights will be revealed and what demeanor she will take on and how sincere it will be or how much she might indulge her fantasies….and I wonder if she will get herself off while doing it all or stop and end up with me making her cum. I shall have to see.

Possibilities and Potential…and a disappointing evening

To my delight, I recently learned that within a very reasonable driving distance from us there are no less than three actual on-premise swing clubs plus a real BDSM fetish club, as well as a group of interracial swingers that meet for private parties (!). No doubt, once we settle our family situation regarding the watching of offspring, we will be paying a first visit to one of these. These being much closer naturally gives us many more possibilities. This forebodes very well for the long term, I suspect. But time will tell. I mentioned their existence to Linda, but at this point they might as well be on the moon for al it matters given our current predicament regarding private free-time.

So, weeks later I fixed us some special drinks and we get to sit down at the computers late one night and get ready for the second experience at hot chatting. I was really hoping this time Linda would encounter some ladies, but was prepared for anything and expecting a lot of guys to come calling since she had a dozen emails waiting with attached photos. But, 10 minutes into it she had gone through all the emails without comment or reply and then says to me that she's "really not in the mood for the black thing tonight." It should have been no problem, but I was devastated. I was so tremendously disappointed. I had looked forward to this for like three weeks, thought about all day, and anticipated it all night. I was already giddy with excitement and bam she slams it down. But, I understood that is she was not in the mod that was that and no problem. Still, my disappointed was so severe I really felt depressed and we ended up just going to sleep. The next morning I rebuffed her advances because I was literally depressed. I had not expected something so simple would have affected me so much. Normally it would be a trivial matter to reschedule something like that night, but since she didn't express awareness for my feelings at the time or apologize for disappointing me and offer to reschedule it for another time, I was irritated with her. The next five days I continued to feel very distant from my wife and very frustrated. I found I had little interest in her because of it. It took us almost a week to communicate things out. Our sex life has had too many disappointments, too many missed opportunities, too many lost occasions and failed experiences the past few years. Our present situation is depressing enough as it is and, of course, I feel Linda is already running deficit when it comes to following through on promises of intimate adventures. So, adding disappointment to my frustration hurt our intimacy. Failing to communicate or make amends only made it worse I felt. By the end of the week Linda had once more promised to try harder and commit more effort and energy into sex. All I could do is remind her that she had made that promise before and then again declare I would hold her to it.

So, here is what I have figured out about men and women:

Women want intimacy, which leads to passion, which leads to eroticism.
Men want eroticism, which leads to passion, which leads to intimacy.
So, if they have passion they meet in the middle and both intimacy and eroticism follow.
But just how to achieve passion without either first is the usual dilemma.

Given our present lifestyle, our family and career commitments, I have determine dour problem is not my wife's interest or need to be persuaded even, but just our lack of opportunity to take the necessary and long awaited "baby steps" to get us where I want us to be. It's depressing, really. It's all about opportunity, I think.